*With a swish and a flick, behold a magic trick
The Narcissist
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Yours truly. 17. Female. Malaysian. Petite. 27th MAY. Single. Maybe available *hinthint* NEWS is her only drug. Absolutely, magically in love with BEAST. Hey! Say! JUMP. SHINee. Super Junior. In that order. Assuntarian. A Harry Potter Twitter Role-Player. Compulsive writer. Lusting for a glance in her direction. Sings like the world is deaf. As genuine as you can get. A self-proclaimed narcissist. Enjoys not having the other half
Love me? Hate me? I'll still be me. Enjoy. Lyn|Avery
Books Pave the Way to Destruction Yet to A Beauty Beyond Imaginations
Her Domain
286 posts from 5 June 2011
Escaping the conforms of society
To stupefy the endless expanse of the universe
Advancing into a world unknown
Please don't RIP Ask permission.
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Twitter: @theivorykeys
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Email: Contact either TorFB for details. (;
Her Cravings
• To be any JE member's adopted sister
• My first book published
• To meet NewS
• To meet Hey!Say!JUMP
• To meet Super Junior
• To meet SHINee
• To get signed to SM Entertainment
• A degree in English
• Black skinnies (:
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• Japanese boy uniform
• To perform a JE song medley
• To perform in Tokyo Dome and get signed to JE
• Another trip to Japan
• Permanent Japanese residence
• A yukata
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• To cosplay
• My first perfect Japanese bento lunch
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• Understand and speak fluent Japanese
• Understand and speak fluent Korean
• National status as a writer
• A laptop or something similar
Will be updated when fancy strikes
Her One True Loves
MY BRATs TEAM. Alor Star 2011 NewS (Lots of love). Hey! Say! JUMP. Masuda Takahisa. Kato Shigeaki. Pen. Paper. Trees. Yamashita Tomohisa SHINee 3A12009. Super Junior. Nakajima Yuuto. Mathematics. Window shopping. Tegoshi Yuya. Japan! Twilight and Dusk. Kim Jong-Woon Sunset. Beaches. Rain. Stars. Inspiration. Koyama Keiichiro. Colours. Winter. Snow. Winter jackets. Nishikido Ryo.
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Saturday, October 29, 2011 @ 3:02 AM
Have you ever felt so helpless that all you want to do it fit yourself into a closet and lock yourself in because being cramped in the tiniest place possible is the safest you'll be able to feel? With love, Avery|Lyn Labels: one liner |
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Wednesday, October 26, 2011 @ 11:40 PM
When all I want to do is break down and cry but I know that doing so isn't going to help me. Doing so will only cause me more pain. And so, I be brave and hold it in. Holding it in until the dam breaks. With love, Lyn|Avery |
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Thursday, October 20, 2011 @ 2:33 AM
Have you ever felt such hatred for your parents that you don't want to even look at them? That looking at them brings you utter disgust? Well, I feel that sort of hatred towards my parents. I'm sure all of us have felt in such a way before. I've never hated my father so much before. I hate him so much that to look at him would make me want to throw up and I hate talking to him. Just the thought of even talking to him disgusts me. He's inconsiderate, not at all understanding and worst of all things, so fucking traditional that I want to slap some modernity into his face. Instance one: the state of my bathroom and my room. What concern is the cleanliness of my room and bathroom to you? You're not living in this space that is MINE. I think I deserve the rights to leave it in whatever condition I want to. You don't use my bathroom and neither do you live in my room. So, I believe that the state of my room is of no concern to you. As long as my room does not pose any health threat to anyone, I think I would like my rights to have my room as it is. Whether I keep it clean or not, has absolutely nothing to do with you. Instance two: If I want to hang onto my iPod for the whole day, that is my choice. If I don't want to study, I think that is my decision for doing so. You don't come barging in to my study methods and claim that I am not studying. If I want to study while talking to a friend of mine on Skype, I think I shall. How do you know that it does not help me to study better? Whenever I study, you don't see me studying. You're either sleeping or not at home. So if I have already studied and I take the night for breaks, I think that is up to me. If I don't get good results, I think that consequence lies on my head. It would not affect you. In fact, it's better because the money that could be used to pay for college could be used for something else. So what the fuck is your bloody problem? Or are you so scared that I won't have enough money to support you when I'm older? Instance three: You're pissed that I don't clean my room and I don't study in front of your eyes...so you do not take it out on my mother! You fucking bastard! Is it my mother's fault that I don't study? Is it her fault that I don't keep my room clean? Yeah. You have a problem, you tell me nicely and calmly. You don't point fingers at me and tell me how to study. I study by reading my books and then do exercises. You do not do exercises instantly when you do not even understand the fucked up subject you're studying. So, stop telling me what to do and let me study however I want to. Instance four: Like seriously...you're going to act like a spoilt brat to me, then fine, I will act like one back. Instance five: I have friends. I can talk to them whenever I want. Especially if they're on the other side of the world. You might be my parents but you do not bloody govern my life or tell me what to do Instance six: I dislike my mother for not standing up to my father for scolding her because of me. It's do stupidly weak. If it was my husband, I'd have already told him off for scolding me for something that has nothing to do with me. So much for being a modern woman. ugh There are so many more that I will name but for now, this are the ones that are affecting me seriously. I cannot wait till I start college because then, I'll finally be able to be free from your bloody control. If you want me to study now, I seriously suggest, you leave me alone. Let me study how I want to or I seriously would not be able to. And stop trying to govern my life because doing so is going to cause me to lash out even more. |