*With a swish and a flick, behold a magic trick
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The Narcissist

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Yours truly. 17. Female. Malaysian. Petite. 27th MAY. Single. Maybe available *hinthint* NEWS is her only drug. Absolutely, magically in love with BEAST. Hey! Say! JUMP. SHINee. Super Junior. In that order. Assuntarian. A Harry Potter Twitter Role-Player. Compulsive writer. Lusting for a glance in her direction. Sings like the world is deaf. As genuine as you can get. A self-proclaimed narcissist. Enjoys not having the other half
Love me? Hate me? I'll still be me. Enjoy. Lyn|Avery
Books Pave the Way to Destruction Yet to A Beauty Beyond Imaginations


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Her Domain

286 posts from 5 June 2011
Escaping the conforms of society
To stupefy the endless expanse of the universe
Advancing into a world unknown
Please don't RIP Ask permission.
Discover where else she speaks her mind
Twitter: @theivorykeys
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Email: Contact either TorFB for details. (;


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Her Cravings

• To be any JE member's adopted sister
• My first book published
• To meet NewS
• To meet Hey!Say!JUMP
• To meet Super Junior
• To meet SHINee
• To get signed to SM Entertainment
• A degree in English
• Black skinnies (:
White skinnies (:
A pet. Definetely
• Japanese boy uniform
• To perform a JE song medley
• To perform in Tokyo Dome and get signed to JE
• Another trip to Japan
• Permanent Japanese residence
• A yukata
A red and black checkered scarf
• To cosplay
• My first perfect Japanese bento lunch
A Japanese dictionary
• Understand and speak fluent Japanese
• Understand and speak fluent Korean
• National status as a writer
• A laptop or something similar
Will be updated when fancy strikes

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Her One True Loves

MY BRATs TEAM. Alor Star 2011 NewS (Lots of love). Hey! Say! JUMP. Masuda Takahisa. Kato Shigeaki. Pen. Paper. Trees. Yamashita Tomohisa SHINee 3A12009. Super Junior. Nakajima Yuuto. Mathematics. Window shopping. Tegoshi Yuya. Japan! Twilight and Dusk. Kim Jong-Woon Sunset. Beaches. Rain. Stars. Inspiration. Koyama Keiichiro. Colours. Winter. Snow. Winter jackets. Nishikido Ryo.

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Runaway
Infatuated<3
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Ramblings&Memories

A few words would be nice. :D

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Hatred Is Not Only A Feeling
To Shed Or Not To Shed
Can It Be Called Love?
When You Fall, Fall With Grace
Is It Called Self Abuse?
The Words of a Man in Love
Of Headaches and Departures
wow

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adrenaline rushing through my veins; another sleepless night
Saturday, November 21, 2009 @ 3:00 AM
adrenaline rushing through my veins; another sleepless night

I won't be able to sleep again tonight. It would be the cause of too much adrenaline racing through my bloodstream at the excitement and nervousness of returning to the Outward Bound School of Malaysia, Lumut for my second year there.
Yet, I'm wondering. If I don't sleep enough tonight, how am I going to be awake Monday morning at six a.m. for morning exercise when my body has already begun adjusting to waking up at a much later hour.
Already, as I type this, I'm yawning like I haven't slept in days and my body is crying out to be put to sleep but my brain wouldn't allow me to. The last time I went, I only slept for four hours being so excited.
But I'm afraid that when I go there, I won't be able to do the activities again just like I did the last time. I clamped up with fear and refused to do it. (Well, most of us girls did anyway) I was angry at myself that time for not doing it but even if I had forced myself to do it, my body wouldn't have co-operated and I would have had a nervous breakdown and I would have thrown up.
Yet, I'm excited to be mixing with participants from other countries. I'm not sure which country we'll be mixing with this year or if we're going to be mixing with a bunch of them. They're mostly from Singapore and Brunei, I guess.
What I find the scariest is how I'm going to survive ten days without my fangirling-ness. If there was a participant who was as crazy over JE idols as I was, I doubt I'd be so bored but if there wasn't and there was only Korean crazy girls, I might just be deprived of my fangirling.

SM!
I hope you're happy to hear that I won't be fangirling but you won't be around to experience it. =P

Ten days. Ten days till I return to my iPod and fandom. Until then, I'll just have to be content with dreams of them. For my PMR present, I don't care, I'm buying JShop Pictures.

Muchappreciationandlove,
Lynxoxo
counting down the days till the time for my muscles to burn
Friday, November 20, 2009 @ 5:22 AM
counting down the days till the time for my muscles to burn
Sayonara nante/owari de nante

I'm contemplating changing my blogskin again. I think I shall. All I need to do now is look for the correct one.
It's been ages since I've updated the blog. I shall begin now. I don't know if this is going to be a long post or not. I'm just going to type what I feel like typing and it's going to be in no specific order. It's just going to be random.

So, the other day, we went to school when we were not supposed to. And ended up much like in quarantine instead we hid out in the counselling room. O.o Courtesy of Mdm. Yong.
And then, E, SL and I decide to head over to SM's place because well, we've got no transport home from school. muahaha.
And then! Ta-da! We decide to play basketball...IN THE RAIN!
Well, it was their idea anyway. And it wasn't much of basketball since I doubt we were that good at it and I was patung-ing in the middle of the HALF COURT.
And since we were playing, we made loads of the most famous thing we are famous for: NOISE!
And there was this stalker like dude who kept staring at us. I'm very sure even with my water drenched glasses that it was a white dude.
Since SM's grandmother had a thing about us playing in the rain, we went to the gym to try to dry off. And it worked and while we were at it, we tried to cover up our drenched clothing by pretending that it was sweat.
(We played with the treadmill since that was the only thing we understood how to use)
Then, we went back to SM's place and into her room.
And her room had an awesome view of the pool so while I stood by the open window and daydreamed, the others decided to attack SM's violins and multiple bows.
And yes, I opened the window since the air outside was like an airconditioner and I enjoyed it.
Till, these few dudes from God-knows-where decides to look up and spots a female and as guys go when they see a female, they decide to disturb them.
I was pelted with 'how are you?' from this one okay looking dude. He wasn't exactly pretty but it wasn't difficult to look at him. And so, I didn't reply. Merely smiled but I doubt they caught the smile.
This guy, he didn't back down. And after a few attempts of 'how are you?', he shut up and left me alone since I time to time went back in the room and join in the violin conversation.
When I returned time to time, he and his buddies were like busy conferring among themselves how to get me to respond.
I might not understand a goddamned thing they're trying to say but I understand body language.
And then, he decides to do and do the most disgusting thing ever. He licks at me. He sticks his tongue out and makes a licking motion. Gross!
Followed by a 'Ni hao mah?'
I was so disgusted and kind of shocked that I replied: Wo bu hao.
And then they were all like muttering but I didn't stay to wait for a response. I went back in.
End of story.

I've seriously no idea what else to say. My blog is dead.
Expect next a book review and a summary of my camp.
(Don't be too hopeful on the camp summary. I might be too lazy to bother)

Muchloveandappreciation,
Lynxoxo
birthday wishes five
Thursday, November 12, 2009 @ 5:11 AM
birthday wishes five


It's difficult to choose since he's got so many pretty pictures. I'm going to put like a whole bunch here
It's frustrating that there aren't pictures with his new hair but he's still beautiful.

Happy Birthday
Tegoshi Yuya-kun of NewS

Watch over Massu as he has watched over you, continue to be your childish self despite having grown a year older, be sexy yet adorable, continue smiling as genuinely as possible, spread member ai, be as perverted as a dirty old man and never forget us fans.
You'd probably never read this either now or later but I feel a little better wishing you a happy birthday.
I still wish there was one of you with your permed hair but these four will have to do.
Happy 22nd on the 11th of November 2009

Lynxoxo
before I forget...
Wednesday, November 4, 2009 @ 5:48 AM
before I forget...



Here's the video to the dance that I so failed.

I am not proud of it as we had *insertname* come and polish up the moves. Okay, I invited the polishing part since we didn't have a mirror to actually correct ourselves to make it perfect.
All went well till she decided that some of the moves weren't very much what she liked. She found them messy, not prominent etc. And so she went on to change them.
I being a loyal HSJ fan didn't like the change of the steps as this was supposed to be a dance cover.
She only stopped changing the steps after I told her to back off.
I welcomed the polishing and all but changing the steps because she found them not prominent, messy etc. made me rather upset and moody.
She was more of a professional dancer who did ballroom and she tried to make our stepping more prominent by making us do some salsa thing that I absolutely detested.
Minor changes could be tolerated but doing that made me really mad as that really ran from the HSJ dance. After that, I told her in a nice way to back off.
Well, my partner, Lydia is a professional dancer too so she just went along with *insertname*
That totally took the fun out of performing and I wasn't very laughy and energetic when it came to the performance time.
Don't get me wrong. I'm not a spoilt brat who wants everything to go her way. I just wanted for once to do a proper dance cover without any changes to the dance moves and have fun.
I wasn't having much fun when it came to dancing. You can tell by my expression. My downcast eyes.

On the topic, *insertname* also helped E with her singing.
E was singing fine before she came along and threw the pressure on her.
Everything went downhill for E then. I didn't here her sing but she cried after the performance.
I don't blame *insertname* but I would like to point out the fact that *insertinitial* who sang for a club's installation was off-tune and *insertname* who provided music for her on the guitar didn't bother telling her.
So why put so much pressure on E for her very good singing.
I think her good singing was proven today and without anyone interfering and telling her that she should sing louder or articulate her words.

Muchloveandappreciation,
Lynxoxo

birthday wishes four
Monday, November 2, 2009 @ 6:13 AM

birthday wishes four

I haven't wished anyone/JE member Happy Birthday in ages so now, I shall begin with Nishikido Ryo-kun of NewS

Happy Birthday
Nishikido Ryo-kun of NewS


*I posted this a day early so I won't forget to*
Be nice to the rest of NewS, watch over YamaPi for us fans, spread the member ai, continue to be spiteful despite being extremely nice, maintain the sexy, husky voice, sing rock music that I will never learn to appreciate and never forget us fans.
You'd never read this whether now or later but it makes me feel a little happier to wish you Happy Birthday.
You look like Tackey in one of the above pictures but that's probably what's so beautiful about you.
I'll never be in love with you but I will continue to squeal over you in certain moments.
Happy 25th on the 3rd of November 2009

Lynxoxo