No matter the mistake, you'll always shine with glitter

The Narcissist

D!
Yours truly. 17. Female. Malaysian. Petite. 27th MAY. Single. Maybe available *hinthint* NEWS is her only drug. Absolutely, magically in love with BEAST. Hey! Say! JUMP. SHINee. Super Junior. In that order. Assuntarian. A Harry Potter Twitter Role-Player. Compulsive writer. Lusting for a glance in her direction. Sings like the world is deaf. As genuine as you can get. A self-proclaimed narcissist. Enjoys not having the other half
Love me? Hate me? I'll still be me. Enjoy. Lyn|Avery
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Her Cravings

• To be any JE member's adopted sister
• My first book published
• To meet NewS
• To meet Hey!Say!JUMP
• To meet Super Junior
• To meet SHINee
• To get signed to SM Entertainment
• A degree in English
• Black skinnies (:
• ~~White skinnies (:~~
• ~~A pet. Definetely~~
• Japanese boy uniform
• To perform a JE song medley
• To perform in Tokyo Dome and get signed to JE
• Another trip to Japan
• Permanent Japanese residence
• A yukata
• ~~A red and black checkered scarf~~
• To cosplay
• My first perfect Japanese bento lunch
• ~~A Japanese dictionary~~
• Understand and speak fluent Japanese
• Understand and speak fluent Korean
• National status as a writer
• A laptop or something similar
Will be updated when fancy strikes

Her One True Loves

MY BRATs TEAM. Alor Star 2011 NewS (Lots of love). Hey! Say! JUMP. Masuda Takahisa. Kato Shigeaki. Pen. Paper. Trees. Yamashita Tomohisa SHINee 3A12009. Super Junior. Nakajima Yuuto. Mathematics. Window shopping. Tegoshi Yuya. Japan! Twilight and Dusk. Kim Jong-Woon Sunset. Beaches. Rain. Stars. Inspiration. Koyama Keiichiro. Colours. Winter. Snow. Winter jackets. Nishikido Ryo.

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Can It Be Called Love?
When You Fall, Fall With Grace
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The Words of a Man in Love
Of Headaches and Departures
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a campaign of hope; dokidoki at the thought of it

Sunday, September 27, 2009 @ 1:12 AM

a campaign of hope; dokidoki at the thought of it

Right after PMR, I'm going to be starting a two-three year petition to bring Japanese pop idol group NewS over to Malaysia.
I'm going to start it after PMR as that is when I will truly be free.
I call Malaysian NewS fans to please join in with this petition and I beg that none of you steal this idea.
If there are any fans who have already started a petition of your own, well then, I would love it if we could join both petitions.
I realise that I'm only fifteen and won't be able to do much but I will do my best.
This petition will begin after PMR which ends on the 15th October.
It won't begin directly after but I guarentee, after PMR, petition forms will be ready.
Please get them from me or you can ask create them on your own.

I feel weird saying this on my blog. Hehe ^^

Lyn

dokidoki went bunbunbun; useless tears

@ 12:12 AM

dokidoki went bunbunbun; useless tears

If you follow my twitter, you should already know. My FaceBooks says so too.
My poor heart is broken.
By someone who barely knows I exist.
Darling Yamashita Tomohisa, fondly known by fans as YamaPi is now dating a half Japanese-half Canadian model by the name of Kagami Seira.
Turns out, they've been dating for three months since the start of the summer and have been introduced to each other by a friend.
When I first saw the video on YT, I thought it was some joke, some sketch or something like that. Turns out, it's friggin real. And if it weren't for the fact that I was surrounded by people, I would have cried on the spot.
Even now, thinking about it, my heart still hurts.
But I can't do anything but be happy for them and hope that she doesn't do anything to hurt him.
If she did, the world's population of YamaPi fangirls would massacre her, including yours truly.
And I do hope that she's not with him and him with her for publicity. That would make me extremely happy but also at the same time, really mad.
It's said that she's real nice and charismatic and have confided in female staff about happy things between them.
It isn't proper for fangirls who have never been involved in any of these things to not wish for their happiness since we're way out of their world and instead, be real made at YamaPi for falling in love.
I only pray for their happiness and that YamaPi would continue to be single. ^^ I didn't say that I didn't want him to be single.
I only wished that it wasn't a model. I would have much preferred singer or actor but I especially despise people who date models.
I would have much preferred if he dated a high school sweetheart or a normal, average, everyday female. It would make him more human.
Sigh.
I still hurt and tear a little each time I think of it.
At least I still have my pig-headed, silky-haired sweetheart and my doublelove of KS. I used to have four NewS crushes but now that he's not available, I'll have to settle for three.

Oh! Who am I kidding? I'm still in love with YamaPi though he is eons out of my league and nine years older.

Muchappreciationandlove,
Lynxoxo

sleepiness catching up; struggling to study

Tuesday, September 22, 2009 @ 7:34 AM

sleepiness catching up; struggling to study

You can save me anytime, just not from a burning building caused by my heat for you

Tadaima~!
First things first.
I wasted my time while I was at Port Dickson. I stuffed my bag to the brim with workbooks to practise while on holiday but sadly, all I did was watch the telly and sleep my days away. My filling up the iPod with music didn't pay off either. There were too many songs in there. I've barely listened to the whole playlist once. It's about 83 songs with four videos so 83 take away four, you get 79 songs.
The whole playlist is dominated by NewS songs though. They're are like a drug that never gets out of your system. Each little tiny bit of them makes you want them more and more. That's just me I guess.
Some would prefer Arashi, KAT-TUN or Hey! Say! JUMP but although I fell in love with Hey! Say! JUMP first, NewS will be my forever love.
Anyway, though I did say I will bring back pictures from the trip, uncensored pictures of me in a swimsuit, I sadly, did not take any.
I'll be honest and say that I was too lazy to bother to take out the camera.
Furthurmore, the place wasn't worth pictures. The beach was disgusting and unclean and half the time when I was in the sea, I had to watch to be careful that I didn't tread on rubbish.
And the sea bed was especially gross.
Have you ever stepped into the ocean and come across some really soft muck that disappears as you go furthur into the ocean?
Well, this one was different.
The furthur you walked in, the softer it became and I had to step back to avoid sinking in.
Yeah, the beach was terrible.
There wasn't even any shade.
Yet, the hotel made it up for the bad beach. The hotel was gorgeous and I fell in love the moment I walked into the room.
I stayed in the hotel instead of the water chalet but I think both are exceptionally beautiful.
Unlike other hotels where the bathroom is hidden, this one is in plain sight and the moment you walked in, you could see the bathroom and there is a door leading to the sleeping area.
I can't really describe it well but it was really, really astounding.
It was so beautiful. They had both a bathtub and a shower area and the bathtub was designed so you could soak in it. They had a spot where you could fit your back and head in comfortably unlike other bathtubs where you sat in and hurt your back.
It was like pure heaven.
So, the hotel really made up for the lousy beach.
Plus, I love the hotel's telly channels. They had NHK which allowed me not to miss Shonen Club Premium. I usually don't care if I miss the Premium or not but since Massu was the guest for that day's episode, I really did not want to miss it. That night, I slept in bliss.
I can't tell you much about the food since I usually don't eat dinner nor lunch in the hotels I stay at. Breakfast was pretty much okay. It didn't suck and neither was it awesome.
The beach at night is awesome though.
Nothing to do with the water or the beach itself.
Barbeque.
That's what is so awesome.
People get to go down to the beach and barbeque.
There are special spots allocated for the barbeque but I guess most people broke it.
And I finally managed to cast a fishing rod. After being stuck under a rock for ages, I tried my hand at fishing and discovered that I love it but I don't think I'll be going to get in a boat and stand with my legs wide apart to catch fish. I'm not that in love with fishing.
And as for dinner and lunch, we just cooked in the hotel room.
That's a good point about this hotel I guess. It was as if it was like an apartment as they had cupboards for utensils, cutlery etc. and even had a kitchen-like sink.
Although the down point about the room was that they don't seem to have very good cleaners. The floor was slightly sandy and the bedsheets (the thick brown one you get in between the white sheets) made me sneeze my head off and develop a slight cold that was dispelled with much needed sleep.
Though I enjoyed my stay there, I craved to return home as it was difficult for me to sleep since I was sharing the bed with my brother and he hogged the blanket and also because it was too cold.
That was about the trip. It wasn't perfect but it was a nice getaway from books and computers. :P

I'm so sleepy that tears are coming out of my eyes.
Oyasuminasai~!
(In the afternoon. I don't think so)

Muchloveandappreciation,
Lynxoxo

an example

Friday, September 18, 2009 @ 2:52 AM

an example

Hmm, people have been bugging me to enlarge my font. Claiming that it's burn their eyes to read it. For your information, if it's too small, just enlarge your view. There's a little button on the bottom right in IE that does that.
I would love to enlarge it but well, it's not very pretty if you enlarge it.
Even sweetmae, one who always bugs me to do so claims so.
This is what is looks like.
This whole text has been enlarged.

Lyn

you put handcuffs on my heart; captive forever

@ 1:49 AM

you put handcuffs on my heart; captive forever

Red lips and sepet eyes; addiction

Moshimoshi.

Yes, a certain someone owning the initals of K.K. has decided to cuff me and drag me with him into oblivion though I already belong to someone else.
I'm so infatuated with NewS that I doubt I'd ever be able to pull myself out of this rut I'm in.
I'm supposed to be studying but I seem to be on the computer like almost constantly. It's so difficult to pull myself away when the computer is calling my name so loudly.
When someone uses it, it's easy to distract myself and go do something more productive but when there's no one using it, my fingers itch to touch it. And bam, all plans to study or write have slid down the slippery, slide-y drain called wasting time.
At the moment, my excuse is to stock up on music for my trip this Sunday.
While people are at friends' open house, I'm on my way to Port Dickson.
I guess I should really start to study but the thought of picking up the stupid Sejarah textbook is such a turn off.
And, I'm waiting for my reply from the one who's selling me the NewS Calendar. She'll probably reply me tomorrow since she's from the US of A.
I'm in love with all but two members in NewS.
I'm not at all infatuated with Nishikido Ryo nor Tegoshi Yuuya. Don't know why. Those two don't seem to catch my eye.
Massu-chan was love at first sight and so was YamaPi
KoyaShige come as a package and cannot be separated. I love those two boys.
My sister and brother are watching some old anime.
Personally, I can't stand anime anymore. They never seem to have good anime nowadays. It's always those with stupid cliche storylines. I hate animes like that.
Why can't the good days of Gensoumaden Saiyuki and Rurouni Kenshin and Ranma return?
Even Sailormoon is tolerable and Dragon Ball too.
Old school anime rocks way harder than the newer animes.

Dressing goth is the new way to go it seems. So is dressing grunge.
At least what the Seventeen mag says.
True?
Some people have been going goth their whole lives and now only do people take notice? Why?
It's more to do with the celebrities wearing them and once celebrities wear them, people will want to copy them as if goth has just existed.
You know, although magazines just tell you what you want to know and what the celebrities are doing, I still read them. It's a girl thing.
Now, I need to get my hands on some Myojo, Duet, Popolo, Potato, Wink Up etc.
More sensible magazines.
Yet, I doubt they're very sensible since those magazines are written in Japanese. But you get to see beautiful boys.

Hmm, I've officially run out of things to say.
Chirarizumu!
Look it up. It's sick. Hehe.

Muchloveandappreciation,
Lynxoxo

just to provide some life

Monday, September 14, 2009 @ 11:43 PM

just to provide some life

See? I'm so lifeless that my blog titles don't have ';' anymore. T.T That is so bad. It's my signature. So far, I'm the only one with the extravagantly long blog titles.
Science Paper 2 today was a giant pain in the behind.
My twitter agrees too.
(Just for you to know, I tweet before I blog so my twitter's more alive. And if you're planning to stalk, go figure)
Science Paper 2 questions were the most uncommon questions ever. Air pressure questions? I could barely answer them. I could barely answer the one with the support system one too. Not to mention the growth questions.
Basically, I just tembak-ed the whole paper.
I barely knew what I was answering.
When my marks return, I bet my tuition teacher is going to have a giant field day. She'll probably kill me. Let's hope that my Paper 1 is nice enough to support my Paper 2 and secure myself an A.
Sejarah paper? Now, here's a funny story.
I banged so many questions. More than twenty questions but when I compared my paper with Sue Lynn's answers, so far, I only had eight wrong.
Compared with her answers lah!
I don't really believe that I could score so prettily for Sejarah so I'm just going to have to wait for my paper. Bah! After the Raya holidays. Have to study real intensively though once I return from Port Dickson.
All communications except for the handphone (which is to be used only during emergencies) will be cut for three days. Leaving on Sunday. Don't expect souveniers except sensored pictures of me in a swimsuit. :P

Well, now I just have to sit back and wait for English Paper 2 and Mathematics. Hopefully that my English will be just as perfect as the previous paper. I scored a very beautiful 94%. No, there is no bragging intended.
Three more papers to do.
How I wish this was really the PMR instead of just a latihan/trial.
On the other hand, I wished it wasn't since my BMelayu paper is extremely terrible.

Hmm, now I want to learn the News Nippon dance. It's so pretty.
I have so many projects once the examinations are over.
There's performing for SEWO. I doubt Sweetmae would allow me to escape from it.
I don't wish to perform solo though. Make sure you're reading this, SM!
I've got Your Seed to master and Bouken Rider though Bouken Rider is optional. :p
I need to master News Nippon and Your Seed. My major projects besides my major writing project.
Completing at least half my novel by the end of the year and my fanfiction entry for the Hey! Say! Talent Contest. It's a YouTube contest by a Youtuber.
All Hey! Say! fans and non-Hey! Say! fans are welcome to join.

Signing off with frustration,
Lynxoxo

when the beauty of words fails

Friday, September 11, 2009 @ 12:55 AM

when the beauty of words fails

We'll, words do fail me.
BMelayu Paper 2 today was a giant failure.
I wouldn't be surprised if I failed that paper. I couldn't complete Part B and Part D.
Part B: I could barely get any points for the stupid thing. I just simply crapped four paragraphs and the last one doesn't even make sense.
Part D: Haha. This one I could barely answer. I just crapped less than five lines of a stupid paragraph. I didn't even know what was going on. I probably would have lost ten marks from there. I don't even know what's the peleraian cerita of either Meniti Kaca or Panas Salju. Like I said, I'd probably fail my BMelayu paper this time around.
I just hope, if I accidentally fail this paper, they don't stick me in the intensive class thing. Bleuk.
Right now, I'm relying on Paper 1 to help me through.

Geography Paper was okay. It wasn't that bad. I managed to go through it without struggling too much.

I'm at the moment thinking of writing a fanfiction with the Hey! Say! kids in it. :P After the PMR examination.