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The Narcissist

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Yours truly. 17. Female. Malaysian. Petite. 27th MAY. Single. Maybe available *hinthint* NEWS is her only drug. Absolutely, magically in love with BEAST. Hey! Say! JUMP. SHINee. Super Junior. In that order. Assuntarian. A Harry Potter Twitter Role-Player. Compulsive writer. Lusting for a glance in her direction. Sings like the world is deaf. As genuine as you can get. A self-proclaimed narcissist. Enjoys not having the other half
Love me? Hate me? I'll still be me. Enjoy. Lyn|Avery
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Her Cravings

• To be any JE member's adopted sister
• My first book published
• To meet NewS
• To meet Hey!Say!JUMP
• To meet Super Junior
• To meet SHINee
• To get signed to SM Entertainment
• A degree in English
• Black skinnies (:
• ~~White skinnies (:~~
• ~~A pet. Definetely~~
• Japanese boy uniform
• To perform a JE song medley
• To perform in Tokyo Dome and get signed to JE
• Another trip to Japan
• Permanent Japanese residence
• A yukata
• ~~A red and black checkered scarf~~
• To cosplay
• My first perfect Japanese bento lunch
• ~~A Japanese dictionary~~
• Understand and speak fluent Japanese
• Understand and speak fluent Korean
• National status as a writer
• A laptop or something similar
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MY BRATs TEAM. Alor Star 2011 NewS (Lots of love). Hey! Say! JUMP. Masuda Takahisa. Kato Shigeaki. Pen. Paper. Trees. Yamashita Tomohisa SHINee 3A12009. Super Junior. Nakajima Yuuto. Mathematics. Window shopping. Tegoshi Yuya. Japan! Twilight and Dusk. Kim Jong-Woon Sunset. Beaches. Rain. Stars. Inspiration. Koyama Keiichiro. Colours. Winter. Snow. Winter jackets. Nishikido Ryo.

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When You Fall, Fall With Grace

Sunday, July 3, 2011 @ 3:55 AM

Well, a life-changing event calls for another post, doesn't it?
I don't have pictures because my camera ran out of battery before I could take more than two but well, I'd rather let my words do the talking.

2nd of July. The day of the Curve, Damansara auditions of the KPop Hitz Talent Show. Excited and nervous, I planned to get up at 8AM but it seems my mom was even more excited that I was and woke me up at 7:30AM. *grins* No, it's actually because I was told to be there at 9PM to register. I tried to dress like G.NA did in her I'll Back Off So You Can Live Better video but it was an epic fail since I didn't have any half-sleeved white shirts and I've grown fatter since the last time I wore my vest. But, it was a rather good attempt with a white tee and the vest since I looked pretty hot...in my reflection at least.

I arrived at The Curve at around 9:30AM and was registered as participant 24. What they had failed to actually tell us was that there was actually a pre-judging before the actual contesting on the main stage. Auditioning inside the tent wasn't as nerve-wrecking as I had expected but I guess it was pretty scary at that time. I forgot to dance and I sang a key higher when I was given a chance to sing lower and I ended up sounding like those squeaky-singing girls I utterly despise. I didn't scream any notes and only failed to hit one. A girl before me literally screamed her high notes and failed to hit most of them.

I felt pretty secure when she came out of the tent with her participant card marked with a green highlighter and when I came out, mine was marked green too. And her voice was certainly powerful and loud but she didn't hit the high notes.

While my mom left to pick my siblings up from school, I was left to fend for myself and swim through sharky waters alone. I felt pretty secure since those with blue or green marked cards were called up for interviews. I actually made a fail of drinking cold water and when I realized I had almost finished half the cup of Coca-cola. But I managed to make amends and constantly drank water to release the tightening of my vocal cords.

There was this one dance crew that was certainly an eye-catcher. They were "Big Bang". Four guys and one girl. All exceptionally good-looking and all extremely good dancers. And damn, I cannot begin to count the number of times the guys literally stripped their shirts off in front of my eyes. Talk about "cuci mata" but I regret not taking a picture with them since damn, one of the guys resembled Tae Yang exactly! Even his "mohawk" and he was darned hot. *drools* They spoke Cantonese though. But damn, they are sexy.

12:30PM was results moment. Like I said, I felt pretty confident. I was called into the tent along with four others. Two other contestants were told to step forward and then my name was called to step forward. I was as confident as ever. Out of four, only one wasn't called forward.

Lo and behold, I didn't get through. I have to admit, I was pretty devastated but well, it was an experience of sorts. And guess what? The one before me who screamed her notes had gotten through. And I was like WHUT?!

And the participant out of five of us had gotten through was a "bapok" or a very girly male to put it in English. And I was kinda irritated that I lost to a "bapok" who utterly made me want to throw up. I guess they liked his confidence and put him through for comedic relief.

Meanings of the highlighter colours:

Red = ELIMINATED
Green = Under consideration
Blue = A confirmed entry

So, I was pretty happy that I got put under consideration and wasn't an instant elimination. It just goes to say that I should practice more. I hadn't actually practiced very well and much since the whole week had been hectic. But I came out from this experience learning a lot. Nervousness won't hit me so much now that I know what it's like. So, for MY Challenge, I am going to practice my heart out. Preliminary rounds are the most important.

And not to sound like a spoilsport but I would just like to point out that the two judges in the pre-judging tent, I doubt they're professionals. Most of those who got put through were dance crews/dancers and the singers that were put through were mostly Malays. I didn't see quite many Chinese put through. And..I doubt they're very good either.

Did any catch the previous auditions on Astro? Yeah..You know EXACTLY what I mean. So, I presume that they thought I had too much of a chance of winning so they decided to cut me. But well, this presumption just emphasises the fact that I am a narcissist.

With love,
Lyn| Avery

Labels: a learning experience, a lifetime of memories