No matter the mistake, you'll always shine with glitter

The Narcissist

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Yours truly. 17. Female. Malaysian. Petite. 27th MAY. Single. Maybe available *hinthint* NEWS is her only drug. Absolutely, magically in love with BEAST. Hey! Say! JUMP. SHINee. Super Junior. In that order. Assuntarian. A Harry Potter Twitter Role-Player. Compulsive writer. Lusting for a glance in her direction. Sings like the world is deaf. As genuine as you can get. A self-proclaimed narcissist. Enjoys not having the other half
Love me? Hate me? I'll still be me. Enjoy. Lyn|Avery
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• To be any JE member's adopted sister
• My first book published
• To meet NewS
• To meet Hey!Say!JUMP
• To meet Super Junior
• To meet SHINee
• To get signed to SM Entertainment
• A degree in English
• Black skinnies (:
• ~~White skinnies (:~~
• ~~A pet. Definetely~~
• Japanese boy uniform
• To perform a JE song medley
• To perform in Tokyo Dome and get signed to JE
• Another trip to Japan
• Permanent Japanese residence
• A yukata
• ~~A red and black checkered scarf~~
• To cosplay
• My first perfect Japanese bento lunch
• ~~A Japanese dictionary~~
• Understand and speak fluent Japanese
• Understand and speak fluent Korean
• National status as a writer
• A laptop or something similar
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watch your mouth; you'll eat your words

Sunday, April 25, 2010 @ 5:05 AM

watch your mouth; you'll eat your words

You know, for a moment, I wondered what was wrong with Blogger's tools...you know the writing tools because they seemed to bare and little. Then I realised that I had been LiveJournal-ing so much that I forgot what Blogger looks like. ^^
If you were in my class, you would know the reason for this post.
It dates back to yesterday (Saturday) and a certain Science class.
Obviously, I wouldn't mention names here...only initials. And if any of you are thinking of taking this to the teachers...would you even know who the person is? I'm sure you would but would you have any proof I'm tkaing about her?
Eat your shorts.

Dear Pn J,
Is there a solid reason as to why you pick solely on our class? Is it because we are the "last Science class" as you put it, therefore, there are no "smart" people in our class and therefore, you are allowed to call us stupid and poke fun at every mistake made?
My mother tells me it's because we are the last class and there are no smart people in our class whose IQ is higher than yours. Compared to your other class where they are uber smart and have IQs higher than yours. Therefore, you cannot criticise them.
Also, is there a reason as to why you are so mean and rude to your students? Do you know that by acting that way towards us, you are not making us any smarter? In fact, you are fuelling the hatred for a single teacher. In my whole life, I have not hated-and I use hated not disliked-another teacher as much as I do you. Care to explain to me why this is?
A softer and nicer but strict approach would do well to teach us a lesson. There is no need to deface us and bring us down to a level so low just because of a few silly mistakes or things that we do not know.
If you do not tell us, then we wouldn't know. We were not informed that after every solution, you need to wash the measuring cylinder before putting in another solution. How were we supposed to know that?
And just because we were the first group to get it done, there is no need to degrade us by calling us names and showing us another group's perfect results because of a tiny mistake. "FIRST GROUP! See? This is what the results are supposed to look like. Benedict's solution is not suppose to change."
Do you think I have never seen Benedict's solution? Do you think I'm so stupid that I don't understand the lesson? Do you think that I will not be able to pass my paper?
Maybe I might not be able to. Maybe the whole class might fail. But that is not an excuse to call us names and taunt us, throwing each tiny mistake in our faces.
We do not need to be reminded of these embarassing things. Degrading us with it will not make us better.
And do you know what's worse? Because we finished the experiment first...and moved on to the third part first? And because we had our last test tube cooling down, she didn't dare look at us because we did it correctly while the others did it wrongly.
Because we were the first to finish without any slipups despite the second part where I did not was the measuring cylinder, she didn't dare to look at us in the eye.
And when we didn't know that holding a hot test tube under running water would cool it down faster, she poked fun at us again. And she was nicer to the other groups when she told them that.
Why? It's a psychological thing to make herself feel better. Because we had done it without any major mistakes and she can't bring herself to admit that we actually understand what we were supposed to be doing.
Do you think I'm stupid? Do you think I come from the M block? Who as you put it "don't know how to handle equipment and shouldn't be in a Science class"? Who as you put it "don't deserve to be in a Science class and that we're only in here because it's the last class and we're all in here because we're stupid"? Think again, you goddamned woman.
Dear Pn J,
Just so you know, I deserve to be in Science 1 but I chose to be in this class because of the subjects offered and not because I'm stupid. Do try to find out more about your students before you poke fingers at them. And when you ask us to make friends with those from Science 1 and 2 to see how they study and manage your time...you want to know what, you inconsiderate hippocrite? Half my friends are from those two classes.
I don't need to be friends with them to know their habits. I already am. And you know what? The way they study is no different from the rest of us.
I'm going to prove to you that I can pass my paper for the mid term examinations. And get my RM10. And if you go back against that promise, you'll be hearing from my parents and my classmates. And if all of us pass, you owe us RM290. And if I get an A, you'll be sure that you give me RM80.
You want us to fail so much? Wait till you see what an A1 student can do.
You'll be so astounded you'll never dare to look me in the eye again.
Mark my words, my dear Pn J, you will never dare to look me in the eye again.

I hearts,
Lyn

an advertisement of sorts

Saturday, April 17, 2010 @ 1:17 AM

an advertisement of sorts

Calling all Super Junior and Johnny's Entertainment fans.
This idea just struck me since I'm not much of a dancer than I am a cover dancer.
I've been wanting to start up a group of cover dancers who love Super Junior, Johnny's Entertainment and dancing.
I'm no dancer so I don't choreograph but I am aboslutely in love with the dances that SM and JE come up with.
I'm looking form a cover dance group who would love to cover both SM and JE.
Oh, who am I kidding?
It'll never work but if you're interested, drop me a message.
And pass this on to any JE/SM fans.

I hearts,
Lyn(:

i just realised donghae can't close his mouth

Friday, April 16, 2010 @ 5:30 AM

i just realised DongHae can't close his mouth (:

SEWO Talent Time Concert.

There were truly magical moments. And truly horrific moments.
All with the pain of wearing closed toe wedges that weren't even high. ==' And the fact that my dress was too short in the back.
A big thank you to the lovely Teh Pin Li and her wonderful sister, Teh Pin Xian. Did I spell that right? A big thank you for being so awesome with hair and making us look extremely gorgeous.
Big thank you to my lovely Hana Nazira for standing by me (: and for Sarah Shakeera just because this woman is so awesome and suddenly come and stand next to me. Thank you. Your support was magical.
Thank you to those in the crowd who gave me even a little support. I now know who my true lovelies are. I hearts. (:
The moments were magical. It was a huge exhilaration and a partial fifty year success.
I wouldn't call it a perfect success. I think, sm, you know what I mean but it was successful enough to still have me smiling.
Prana deserved the win though Groovy Chic would have been my first choice. Oo Well, they're all my friends.
Though I wasn't extremely happy that SHE won. You know who I am talking about, eh? No? Go figure. I bet most of you do. In my opinion, she didn't deserve at all the first prize. Now, all my dear hunnies, she would let it go to her head.
Oh, anticipate the snatching away of the microphone from your hand and screaming that doesn't do justice to good songs. Just because you can sing, doesn't mean you can't give others the chance to shine.
And to sm's compliments. (: Another moment to look back and laugh.
And Mdm Yong's sudden storm-ation of the stage and screwing up the whole flow of the otherwise flawless event.
And me forgetting my cue and coming in late.
Hana and Sarah standing by me. (:
Sue Lynn layan-ing my invitee.
My invitee being utterly useless and occupied. Sorry, hunney but it was a huge mistake inviting you. I love you but well, I guess I should refrain from inviting you when the event involves me having to run around.
Despite the initial tension of the wonderful Interactors not doing their job despite having twenty of them there. All wanting to only SELL their stuupid programme books instead of ushering, it was all worth while.
The exhilaration.
The screaming.
The love.

A fifty year miracle. SEWO.

I hearts,

Lyn

reminiscing on my childhood

Thursday, April 1, 2010 @ 8:45 PM

reminiscing on my childhood

It's surprising how fast we grow up, you know. I'm being real sentimental here and it's got nothing to do with my JE boys. ;p though most of my sentimental-ness comes from them and Super Junior.
Despite the fact that I'm only sixteen, I think I can clearly say that we're all growing up too fast. And the children of today, the ones who are bratty and noisy and irritatingly rude are so different that the kids we once were.
I still remember the days when every little wrong we did, the cane would land solidly on our hands and we were disciplined to the max. If we dared to answer back, a hand would land on our faces and we would have to fight to hold the tears in because tears were seen as weak.
Children back then were to be seen and not heard and that was how we were brought up. Comparing my childhood to those of the children now, I'm lucky to have been disciplined from a young age to be good and well-mannered.
Children of today are rude and bratty. When they see their parents' friends, they don't call Aunty or Uncle as were taught to and if we didn't back then, we'd get an extremely stern glare.
I must say, children of today have it easy for them. Back when I was a kid, mechanical pencils were expensive to get and I used a normal pencil up till I was eight when my best friend gave me one of her unwanted mechanical pencils.
It was my first and I treasured it because everyone had one and I felt left out using the 'cacat' wooden pencil. Yes, when I was a kid, I was very affected by peer pressure but I forced myself to outgrow the conforms that everyone expects me to be and grew into an individual.
When I was younger, handphones were like only for adults. All of us kids used the house phones to talk to one another for centuries. My best friend and I used to talk forever on the phone and we wouldn't even put it down until we got scolded.
That was how useful the house phone was back then even if the cellphone is now extremely versatile and much needed. I still don't own one and I'm getting along fine. I've realised that i didn't need material items to live even if it made my life a little easier.
People back then didn't own tellys or computers or even phones and they managed to live life to the fullest.
Most people nowadays would say that they were really 'ulu' or old-fashioned but I think they are to be upheld and honoured. After all, those of the olden days had it easier. They didn't fight to be in the corporate world. They didn't fight over corruption. People were content wherever they were even if it meant that they could grow hungry.
They valued life itself.
That was what kept them moving.
Looking at today's kids, almost all below the age of seven own a cellphone. I mean, Oo. I'm sixteen and I don't even have one. What need would a kid of five or six need a cellphone for? They don't conduct business. They don't need to make long calls asking for homework.
Isn't it a bit silly for the parents of these spoilt children to get them cellphones when they demand for one instead of making them work for it? All my materialistic items had been worked for. My first Walkman. My first radio. My first iPod. My second iPod. The computer I'm typing at now.
Obviously clothes and books don't count.
Clothes are a necessity though I tend to buy alot of unwanted ones. ;p
Books on the other hand. That's another story. Children of today barely read. Ask them to pick up a book and they'll return to the PSP's and XBoxes. After all, their parents never valued books unlike how my parents did.
All kids will not like to read. They prefer to sit around and play with their toys. Or run around and release alot of pent-up energy. We're kids after all. But the parents never set aside a time for them to even do a little reading unlike how my mother did.
In fact, if it weren't for my mother, my writing skills wouldn't even exist. She instilled a love for reading in me. Truthfully, when I was younger, I hated to read. My mother would smack me each time I refused to read.
As I grew older, I grew to love reading and the way the spun words can make me long for more. I grew to love books as well. And when I decided that the words in the books didn't meet my own fantasies, I created my own.
I only began seriously creating my own stories when I was ten. ;p
But even when I was younger, I tried my hand at writing stories. My first ever story went like this:

Once upon a time, there lived a very beautiful black sheep by the name of [insert name]. And they lived happily every after.

(:
Yeah, you can see how infatuated with writing I was. ;p Even when I was kid, I had perfect grammar. I still remember how we were supposed to write a short experience of our visit to a police station and when my teacher checked it, she told me to purposely put in a mistake just so she could correct one. ;p so I changed 'me' to 'em'.
Kids of today are useless. They are so self-centered. And it's not their faults either. Their parents made them that way by not training them.
Wow, what a long rant.
And the cartoons that the kids of today watch. I miss the days when we had Pokemon, Digimon and the old-fashioned, hand-drawn Mickey Mouse. ;p These were classic shows that will never ever run out of style. How I wish the kids of today know how to appreciate them. ;p

Here's the wonderful source of my rant.
The Pokemon Season 1 Theme Song. ;p

Muchloveandappreciation,
Lynxoxo

birthday wishes 7

@ 8:54 AM

birthday wishes 7

Sorry, no pic spam this time. Too lazy. ;p

Happy Birthday to the lovely Okamoto Keito of Hey! Say! JUMP

You're finally 17. (:

Keep on being gorgeous and continue to grow taller. Keep on being the lovable, blurr rocker boy we all know and love. Spread member ai among the members of JUMP. Continue to be my inspiration. Continue to warm the hearts of fangirls all over the world.

You're not my top on the list of favourite JUMP members but you sure come in a close third. (:

Though you may never read this, I feel better wishing you a very Happy Seventeeth Birthday.

officially in love with heechul

@ 7:50 AM

officially in love with heechul

The Super Junior high died down days ago though I was on a high for two days after the concert and on Monday, I had exams. (:
Sorry for not blogging earlier about it. Unfortunately, my Internet decided to die at a very convenient moment because the lightning struck my modem, causing me to be Internet-less for a week.
I arrived there at a rather late moment, an hour before the show begun. No merchandise was being sold save for a RM120 bag with an official T-shirt and flag. But since it was Rm120, we didn't bother about it and said: Maybe later when we come out there would be more things.
So, we went in and waited for about an hour before SuJu really came out.
And my seat...was just a few metres away from where RyeoWook emerged. Unfortunately, despite standing on my seat, I couldn't even catch a glimpse of him though my sister did but she was too silly to take the camera from me and capture the moment. (:
I cried the very first moment that the first member :KyuHyun was announced and the spotlight shone on him. (:
I couldn't stop myself. I just broke down. I was so extremely happy. (:
I didn't really pay much attention to the performances since I was too busy taking pictures. ;p And also due to the fact that I didn't recongise most of the songs. What a SuJu fan, right?
Highlight of the night:
After SuJu-M finished that ballad of theirs...what the title was I cannot remember and the place went dark. Everyone quieted down and sat in their seats. And then!
BAM!
The starting beats of Super Girl came on and the whole hall jumped up and went wild. Even I did. ;p I think everyone had been waiting for Super Girl.
Downpoint: YeSung wasn't feeling really up to it that night. Even his vocals lacked the powerful tone it always had, whether singing studio or live. It seemed like he was extremely tired.
He also responded to EunHyuk's playfulness during Our Love in a negative manner, smacking him away.
I was rather upset with YeSung that night but it can't be helped if he wasn't feeling too well.
LeeTeuk wasn't feeling very well either but I don't think he showed it that much. (: I feel so bad for YeSung. T.T
Sarangheo Kim Jong-Woon. (:
And during Shining Star, Teukkie cried. I cried. (:
It was one of the most touching moments ever. All E.L.F.S with their finger torches, mimicking lights. Oh, how I wish i knew where to get the pearl sapphire blue glowsticks and the torches. I have no idea where to get them.
Oh, how I wish I went to the airport to greet them but I had no clue about their arrival times and such so, nada. And also to send them off.
They didn't actually acknowledge the fans. I'm not sure if they were told not to do so or not but they didn't. Like most of them also just walked on straight without looking left or right. Maybe it was their orders, so as to not let the fans go crazy and slow them down to getting into their car/special lounge.
Safety reasons and all that.
This was the first concert that I've been to that I've ever enjoyed. And despite wanting my first-enjoyable concert to be JE, I think SuJu was spectacular. I was so in love...I am in love. What the hell am I saying?
Oh, and I've officially fallen in love with the wonderful meowmeow HeeChul. (:
And I've officially married the wonderful YeSung. (:
Oh, remember the Rm120 merchandise?
Yeah...giving some thought of going home empty-handed, my mom decided to buy it for us without my dad's knowledge.
I bought a YeSung as expected and my sister asked for a Han Geng. Unfortunately, my mom pronounced Han Geng wrongly and we ended up with a RM120 shirt and flag that my sister didn't even want. A KangIn. ;p But my mom doesn't really mind. Any official SuJu merchandise is as good as you can get.
Right now, I'm fangirling as I watch the videos on YouTube. (: Watching them on YT allows you to notice things you never noticed when watching it live.
I seriously wish I had been there to welcome them and send them off. But alas, I don't own my own transport. That'll have to wait till I'm old enough to get my license and drive. (:
I am now praying that they would come back for another concert. Perhaps a Super Show 3. In conjunction with their 4th album. Oh, I seriously cannot wait.

Pictures aren't really clear nor pretty. But they're on FaceBook. Well, 200 of them only. The other 204 are yet to be uploaded.

Deeply madly in love,

Lynxoxo