*With a swish and a flick, behold a magic trick
The Narcissist
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Yours truly. 17. Female. Malaysian. Petite. 27th MAY. Single. Maybe available *hinthint* NEWS is her only drug. Absolutely, magically in love with BEAST. Hey! Say! JUMP. SHINee. Super Junior. In that order. Assuntarian. A Harry Potter Twitter Role-Player. Compulsive writer. Lusting for a glance in her direction. Sings like the world is deaf. As genuine as you can get. A self-proclaimed narcissist. Enjoys not having the other half
Love me? Hate me? I'll still be me. Enjoy. Lyn|Avery
Books Pave the Way to Destruction Yet to A Beauty Beyond Imaginations
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286 posts from 5 June 2011
Escaping the conforms of society
To stupefy the endless expanse of the universe
Advancing into a world unknown
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Her Cravings
• To be any JE member's adopted sister
• My first book published
• To meet NewS
• To meet Hey!Say!JUMP
• To meet Super Junior
• To meet SHINee
• To get signed to SM Entertainment
• A degree in English
• Black skinnies (:
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• Japanese boy uniform
• To perform a JE song medley
• To perform in Tokyo Dome and get signed to JE
• Another trip to Japan
• Permanent Japanese residence
• A yukata
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• To cosplay
• My first perfect Japanese bento lunch
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• Understand and speak fluent Japanese
• Understand and speak fluent Korean
• National status as a writer
• A laptop or something similar
Will be updated when fancy strikes
Her One True Loves
MY BRATs TEAM. Alor Star 2011 NewS (Lots of love). Hey! Say! JUMP. Masuda Takahisa. Kato Shigeaki. Pen. Paper. Trees. Yamashita Tomohisa SHINee 3A12009. Super Junior. Nakajima Yuuto. Mathematics. Window shopping. Tegoshi Yuya. Japan! Twilight and Dusk. Kim Jong-Woon Sunset. Beaches. Rain. Stars. Inspiration. Koyama Keiichiro. Colours. Winter. Snow. Winter jackets. Nishikido Ryo.
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Sunday, June 28, 2009 @ 3:50 AM
twirling with ribbons of fantasy; pen to paperSometimes the fantasy becomes so real that you actually live it Pen to paper. The ink smudging as I write with my left hand. The thrill of a new idea forming. The many errors that occur as I get a giant brainstorm. I absolutely miss the thrill of writing. I've barely written a page since the holidays. Been held down by the mindless bunch of homework that I have yet to complete. English, History, Geography...etc. Even Art. I don't think I really care about Art anymore. It's a mindless subject. But there will be a big fat C on the certificate that I will receive at the end of the year. Is it worth the C? No idea. Hmm...That is left to be seen if I give a damn about art. To spur from the original topic: Why do we learn art in school? Not art! Whatever shit we're learning in school at the moment is not art. It is just mindless drawing which the teacher bribes the students to finish with promises of adding in the marks obtained to another part of pointless learning which brings me to the textbook part of studying art. You'd think we would learn useful techniques in the textbook to practise in the real artworks that we would create. Sadly, the textbook teaches no techniques but instead gives you useless notes that you are made to memorise to once again obtain marks which will be added to the marks of the artworks created through the bribing of A's by the Art teacher. What is the use of a textbook in Art class? You do not go to an art school and see them carrying textbooks. Instead, they all carry sketchbooks. And the artworks in them are not graded based on beauty and perfection. It is graded on creativity, originality. Whereas in school, it is graded on the perfection of it. It would be absolutely cliche. And you would need to think of something within the box and not leap to creative heights. Isn't that what art is all about? Creative heights and exploring your inner artist? On the contrary, in school, we are given examples to copy from and we have to make exact replicas of the "perfect" artwork that will be pasted on the whiteboard for the whole class of 46 to copy in perfect detail. We are merely making copies and not our own artwork. The teacher doesn't bother to teach. She will stand in front of the class and say, "Now class, you have to copy all eight pictures and I want it in three weeks time." There is no real art teaching there. Just mindless copying. She doesn't teach. She just instructs. Where is the real point in learning art? I do not see the point in learning art in school. And for the SPM examinations, art is a compulsory subject. Where is the fun in learning art? Where is the beauty and satisfaction of creating something from the depths of your mind and heart? Lost for the A's and useless lessons learnt in class. Take the Calligraphy lesson for example. Sure, we were taught how to write in Form2 but that too, we were given examples by the teacher to copy. No real teaching is ever done in art class. Whatever is done during the exams has nothing to do with whatever is learnt in class. In exams, that is the only time where there are no limitations as to what you can create. In conclusion, art taught in Malaysian schools are a waste of time. We could use that time to do something more productive like learning a second language or having extra periods of Psychical Education. Back to my original topic: Just to say, once more, I'm on a writing hiatus with tons of fantasies in mind. Not one has been put down and NO! Not that kind of fantasies. Fantasies or more likely I should say ideas so as to not have people thinking in a different way. And to think that I wanted to release my best book to date at the end of this year or middle of next year. I'll never be finished in time with the stupid pile of homework and the amount of studying I haven't done. So much for putting the pen to paper And imagination to reality. Muchappreciationandlove,
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Friday, June 26, 2009 @ 12:00 AM
in honour of the legendary King of Pop; saluting till the very endI don't know the King of Pop very well and growing up as a kid was very different since he had already had tons of controversy at that time. I was only exposed to the very few extra popular hits like Thriller, Billy Jean, Heal the World etc. Yet, his moving on has taken a giant toll on me. Every since I was young, my parents have constantly praised the King of Pop and I had always wanted to attend his concert. Alas, he has departed this world and that chance has been lost to me. Although I have not grown up falling in love with the King of Pop, he certainly has garnered my respect. I will not be a giant fan although my parents are. They even travelled down to Singapore just to watch him in concert. Eventhough he might never ever come across this, in life or death, I still would love to say: Dear Micheal Jackson, Supreme King of Pop You've garnered respect and love all over And your loss will forever be etched into history Dear Micheal Jackson, Supreme King of Pop, Son, Brother and Father Rest in Peace May God Bless Your Soul.
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Monday, June 22, 2009 @ 12:54 AM
Dancing on the shades of music; simplicity Grey, black and white make perfect harmony
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Friday, June 19, 2009 @ 7:47 AM
Competing to show her love; all she needs is a good camera Dreaming is a wish of the heart's deepest desires
Prizes are limited editions of their singles. What an awesome prize. It's damn difficult to get the CDs in Malaysia because they're not distributed here. Damned and sad. But I absolutely refuse to do it alone. Why? I don't have a good camera. So, lamenting here. SweetMaeChan says that I talk too much about Japanese stuff here and that she's too lazy to read. XP It's my obsession. And I love it. I can't help it if that's all I can think of blogging. And no, I don't really feel like blogging about school or anything too trivial. If you don't like what I blog about, then fine. No one asked you to read. Technically, eventhough I would love for my blog to be read, if you don't like it's contents, feel free to leave. I'm not forcing you to read. And I would appreciate if you didn't trash it too. Though I think my blog is so unread that trashing isn't necessary. And yeah, although this might seem like a hate/anger post, it really isn't. I just decided to say those few words above and none of them are aimed at anyone, so SweetMae, if you think I'm directing those words to you, go un-word blind yourself. XD Okay, wrong sign. That's Dhiviah's. Going to Sunway College for An Oxford and Cambridge English Language Event 2009. Might not be attending IU for long. Few minutes maybe? To all participating Interactors, gambatte~! Maybe a moment of camwhoring tomorrow is absolutely needed. Muchappreciationandlove, Lynxoxo |
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Tuesday, June 16, 2009 @ 5:35 AM
littlelittle snippets; money-wiseFloating in bliss at the sound of your voice, your everlasting scent
Blogging for the sake of keeping the blog alive. I'm not supposed to be using the computer for so long but I can't help it since I'm watching a NewS Pacific Tour Behind the Scenes/Documentary. Loads of Geography notes to finish by the end of this week. And not to mention studying. Supposed to be doing Form 2 History but turns out, I'm procrastinating once more and with the amount of Geography I've got to get done, studying will have to wait. And my plan of saving up money for my own usage is failing. I've just used ten bucks yesterday. Because I couldn't control the urges of having to buy a RM2.50 ice-cream. Next time, I'll have more self discipline. And I limited myself to one buck today. So, today's saving plan has gone well. But now that I'm thinking, most of the time, my parents give me RM20. I don't want them to know that I'm saving up using my makan money. I don't know what their reaction will be and I don't want them to give me extra makan money. I just want to save on my own account for buying Idol stuff=CDs, Calenders etc. So, I've got to start bringing food from home nowadays. And I'm limiting myself to one buck a day. I'd probably starve myself to death or if I'm lucky, I might just grow skinny. As I was saying, I get RM20 and I've rationed it to two weeks. So, RM10 goes into my saving box. And the other RM10 is for food. I'm desperate for my own money. Ever since the time my wallet got stolen and I lost RM200 in there. I used to have RM700 to my own name But using it over the years as I grew older and my mom told me if I wanted something to pay for it on my own, it depleted. And the loss of RM200. You get the general idea. I've got to start saving from scratch. Any takers? Muchappreciationandlove, Lynxoxo |
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Friday, June 12, 2009 @ 7:53 AM
Inching closer and closer to perfectiom Expands when eating. Contracts when exercise. Lately, I haven't been contracting. My sister said that after I said that her ass was taking up all the space on the chair. Cute, ain't it? And so extremely true. A little receipe for you. A dash of happiness, a pinch of regret. You mix that in a giant emotion mixing bowl and you'd get me. At the moment anyways. Happiness for no specific reason. I'm just happy. You don't neeed an excuse to be happy. You just are. It can't be explained. Unless you talk about the little bit in your brain that controls emotions. Maybe that's what is making you happy. Regret for not doing homework and not studying in two weeks. Art, I can finish in probably a day. Geography, I don't think it's that easy but I can manage to at least complete a little of that darned woman's work. Moral. That's so screwed for. And I have to stay back on Monday. That's enough for me to finish up Moral and Geography. I hope. I can partially complete Moral and Geography in the next two days. I hope I can manage to rush through it. I've still got English corrections to finish up. Grr. That's what happens when you're a giant lazy bumbum. I barely even practised the piano. This is why you can never give her holidays. She'd waste it doing her hobbies. And not her homework And she's not a very good liar. All her lies have already dried up. Grr. Well, what can I say? This is my attitude. Have fun first, regret later. It seems to be my life motto. Well, I'd probably buck up my studies after this school break but I don't know what to say about completing homework. School's a bitch But once the holidays come, you'd wish you were back at school But once school starts, you'd wish the holidays never ended. Life can be that unfair but who says things are always fair? Muchappreciationandlove, Lynxoxo
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Thursday, June 11, 2009 @ 7:48 AM
fore-warning; a j.e. dream? ecstatic at being told thank you by a total stranger :) Once school starts, updates won't be absolutely frequent since I'm going to spend a lot of my time seriously studying. And I'm not going to procrastinate and allow the computer to tempt me away. I'll make checks on tagboard everyday and update when I can but hopefully, I can concentrate real hard on goddamned studying for exams. Why can't I revert to my smart days in primary school before Geography, History and Kemahiran Hidup were ever introduced? And I need to train myself to wake up early everyday. It's going to be a pain in the ass and absolutely difficult. And, completing crappy homework. I haven't done Geography, Art and Moral. Geography: I'm too lazy. Art: Refer to above Moral: My textbook got confiscated. So, I procrastinate and make up all kinds of excuses. And yes, I've used my holidays to write and draw. Writing: I only did it for the first week and that wasn't much. Without much research and sitting in a freezing room-my dad's office-, it's difficult to write a lot. I did manage to get to a certain part which I had hoped to achieve. Drawing: A newly discovered pasttime after I put aside drawing anime once my "animes" constantly looked like cartoon characters. ShernLyn has turned to designing. And as many have said: I bet it's easy for you. You're a girl and you're designing girl clothes. Well, it's not. And no, I do not do female clothing. I did not swear off female clothing but I did promise myself not to unless it's absolutely necessary. And you might say: Men's clothes are easy too. You design a shirt and bottoms, add a little pattern and then you're done. Once more, my style of designing isn't easy. Life is easy. But I make it difficult for myself. I do elaborate Japanese Johnny's Entertainment style. Flamboyant but at the same time, easy on the eyes. Atm, I'm only taking whatever I see from their performances and matching them to my style though I do retain the originality in them since they're used as examples. But I am copying the SnowExpress-NewS clothing from their Never Ending Wonderful Story since I fell in love with it. And there's only one of my designs which give me absolute satisfaction as that was the only one that came deep from my heart and is purely my own design. And extremely detailed. I'll upload the designs when I have achieved a certain number of designs. In the meantime, request for viewing and I'll gladly show you. Most of you probably won't know why I suddenly started designing. My motives are for me to know and for you to find out. It's easy. Any one can figure it out. They'll get me closer to my teenager's dream in the future. Muchappreciationandlove, Lynxoxo ~She received love on a YouTube video for loving someone's videos. I do love her videos~ A little eye-candy:
KoyaShige bit of sexiness
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Monday, June 8, 2009 @ 5:05 AM
Isn't it enough he left but must he be replaced with CreepySmile? It seriously is heart-breaking. Not for those who read this but to me. B.I. Shadow is debuting in July. Now, you would say: What's so heart-breaking about a group debuting? Shouldn't that be good news? If you were a giant fan of all things Johnny Jimusho and have been introduced to B.I. Shadow at an early stage, you'd understand why this hurt me so badly and I almost cried. B.I. Shadow is debuting in July as Nakayama Yuma with B.I. Shadow. That's their goddamned name. Isn't it obvious that Nakayama Yuma would be the focus of the group and that B.I. Shadow will be mere pawns in the game and just be plain old background singers and backup dancers? Also, Nakayama Yuma was no one before this. He belonged to a Johnny's Juniors group: TOP Kids. Hell, I didn't even know about him before this news hit me today. And another piece of bad news, Takahata Misaki, my long-time idol of B.I. Shadow has left the group and replaced with a small kid by the name of Kochi Yugo. And I was in love with Takahata Misaki ever since I watched Scrap Teacher. At least Nakajima Kento (NakaKen) has not left but it isn't very much like B.I. Shadow without Takahata Misaki. I can't ever see B.I.Shadow without Takahata Misaki (TakaMi). If any of you have ever seen Scrap Teacher~Kyoshi Sensei~, you'd understand why. In the drama, TakaMi, NakaKen and Kikuchi Fuma (KikuFu) make up the previous B.I.Shadow and in Scrap Teacher, they were the bullythreesome of the school. So you can see why B.I.Shadow loosing TakaMi is such a heartbreak to me. Whatmore, NakaYuma isn't bad-looking but he has an extremely creepy smile that breaks my heart each time I think that TakaMi would no longer be there. But I think the reason Johnny's put NakaYuma there is because no matter how much I hate the bias-ness towards him and replacing TakaMi, I can't deny the fact that his voice is extremely beautiful and is extremely low. Though, I was hoping Morimoto Shintaro would have joined them. It wouldn't be so bad on my heart. This is what fans of the previous Ya-ya-yah must have felt when the group broke up for Yabu Kota and Yaotome Hikaru to join Hey! Say! JUMP. As they say, history repeats itself. Kis-My-Ft2 or ABC-Z should have debuted first. Oh well, I just got to learn to accept the fact that they are going to be debuting with Mr. CreepySmile, the absence of TakaMi, the focus being on Mr. CreepySmile and NakaKen, KikuFu and the other two being backup dancers and background singers. Pray and hope for the best. Their debut single is actually not bad. Akuma no Koi (Evil Romance). ~ I was supposed to say a few words on the ScienceMathinEnglish thing but decided against it because I don't want my blog to be monitored by the media and then I get into ISA for saying stuff about the government. Sounds conceited but I wouldn't risk it. ~ Topic switch to wanting to fly. Yeah, I want to be harnessed under the costume with wires attached to the hidden platform above the stage and be lifted up above the crowd and fly. That's one of my dreams. Which is linked to my obsession with performing in Tokyo Dome/Yokohama Arena and debuting under Johnny's & Associates. Flying with the harness above the stage and crowd is so awesome. And the feeling would be just surreal. You can't do that here in Malaysia. We might have the technology for it but we don't have the safety for it. In Japan, you can lift a group of ten people on the wires with two out of the ten doing extremely dangerous spins and twirls hanging from the wires underneath the group of eight. In Malaysia, if that was done, I can already see the headlines: Japanese pop idol group, Hey! Say! JUMP dies after performance. Yes, Hey! Say! JUMP did this during one of their performances. It was just beautiful. And NewS' Never Ending Wonderful Story concert had YamaPi and Tegoshi Yuya flying above the crowd and stage. I want to fly just like that. Muchappreciationandlove, Lynxoxo |
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Sunday, June 7, 2009 @ 5:31 AM
snippet of the day Finally mastered the dance chorus of Mayonaka no Shadow Boy by Hey! Say! JUMP On to mastering dance chorus of Summertime by NewS Wish me luck! Muchappreciationandlove,
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@ 3:04 AM
speaking a thousand words The first time I saw you, our eyes collided and I fell Here's my newest baby. NewS Summertime Single with three songs: Summertime Easy Come, Easy Go Baby! Be My Baby! It cost me RM50+RM20 and loads of sulking and begging But it's worth it I know I'm late by two singles Summertime was like released last year's summer And before Koi no ABO and Happy Birthday You can see how late I am But what to do, they don't have it here in Malaysia But when I went to Rock Corner the other day, they had Taiyou no Namida, an even older single.
Front Cover
The Inside: Lyric Booklet and Back of CD
The Back Side of the Lyric Booklet
The CD it's self. And the long awaited pictures of my puppy.
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Saturday, June 6, 2009 @ 6:14 AM
never letting go; mere four hoursListening to your voice and falling harder than ever Genting plans were cancelled for what reason, I really don't know. Switched to MidValley Bigwhoop! Dined in a simple manner with rice, prawns and Coca-cola. Scoured the Rock Corner and came out sulking Discovered the latest addition of The 39 Clues: Beyond the Grave, the latest addition to Gossip Girl: The Carlyles and a book on running teens. Sulked for ages till the books cheered me up Ventured to the downstairs for ice-cream, cameras and another round of Coca-cola Scoured Speedy and came out empty-handed once more when the wrong item turned up Ventured up once more to return safely home Rest stop at a puzzling venue Changes of heart made mine soar A RM50+RM20 made absolute dreams come true and smiles full of warmth and happiness Squealing occured as I tried to keep a straight face The journey to the mode of transport was spent talking about certain prettyfaced idols That pretty much sums up my day. Try to figure out what the hell I'm trying to say. I'm too lazy to type long sentences and I wanted to see if anyone could guess what's going on. Go guess... And pictures of my RM50+RM20 dream come true in one of the future posts when I manage to locate the cable for the camera. Muchappreciationandlove, Lynxoxo |
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Thursday, June 4, 2009 @ 8:43 PM
wasting my days away; the puppy's happyHead over heels for you but you're so unattainable I'm torn to downloading Ares Can anyone give me guarentee that my computer won't be down with viruses? Or that the P2P feature will not affect? I'm afraid that my dad will kill me if I download more music and put viruses in... Grr People say that Ares is safe but I'm still in doubt ~ Wasting the holidays away. Sitting at home and doing nothing. I can't even be bothered to do homework. I've only finished my Essay homework and that was an impulse because it was essay. If it wasn't essay, I wouldn't have bothered to do it. Yeah, and Comprehension... I only finished it in school because my English textbook is cacat and the printing people were blind Because I'm missing more than ten pages of the textbook Not because it was ripped off But because it wasn't printed in How lame can that be? I'm too lazy to finish Geography notes. Hope that goddamned woman would not ask for it the instant we return. I'm not done with the seven sheets of Math homework because I forgot the formula to count the volume of a cone and I can't be bothered to find out. What dumb excuses I'm giving? I'm supposed to be doing mindmaps...two a day to study for Geography, History and Living Skills But I can't be bothered to go get paper and my textbook. Sheeeee? What kind of excuses And stupid procrastinating And I'm supposed to be cleaning my room as I type this. I can't be bothered What to say? I'm lazy The only times I ever go out is for tuition That's twice a week Three times next week Wednesday, Thursday and Saturday That's the only times My mommy absolutely forbids leaving the house Even if it's for school work So, as you can see how lazy I am I might be going to Genting tomorrow My mom said she suddenly had the urge to go to Genting Weird I know But well, I've only been once to Genting Looking forward to getting out of the house I haven't gone on a mind-clearing-body-aching-out-of-breath run in ages I should go out for one Soon... So, conclusion I'm wasting away at home How I wish school was here But when school's here How I wish I was at home At least my dog's happy He gets to be out of the cage the whole day And company Good for you Rooney Muchappreciationandlove, Lynxoxo |
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Monday, June 1, 2009 @ 5:09 AM
obsession; dokidokiI want you in my arms I want you to whisper sweet nothings I want you to dry my tears I want you to share my joy I want you to just plain snuggle I want you to stop the thumping of my heart I want you to look in my direction I want you to call my name I want you to love me as I am I want you to wake up next to me I want you to be the gentleman I want you to hold my hand I want you to sing and dance with me I want you to be proud of me I want you to kiss me tenderly There are so many things that I want you to do but most of all I want you to be mine Nakajima Yuto, Keiichiro Koyama, Masuda Takahisa, Yamashita Tomohisa
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@ 4:05 AM
aching heels and toes; was worth the walk Head over heels but you're so unattainable 1st of June 2009 A day to remember. As of all days of crazy laughter Gossiping Spending cash Eating till we're so full Walking in no specific direction Buying unnecessary objects (~that's me only) Unable to make decisions Complains The list goes on forever. Shogun was a flop. SweetMae and I arrived there at 10:30AM and seeing that the guy was just setting up the waiting line and we didn't want to look stupid by queueing so early, so we didn't. Turns out that when we went back at 11.15AM, the queue was so long that we were No.16 on the third waiting list. Before that, we queued up as normal people do But as normal Malaysians do, old ladies, old ladies I tell you, jumped queue and just shoved their way in. An example of the bad Malaysian One even had the nerve to say to another old lady in Cantonese: "You look very familiar. Do you live in my row?" And SueLynn, queen of queue-jumping technics which we resorted to after the old ladies couldn't bother to stand in line like everyone, said that the line was a line used to jump queue. They opened doors at 12.00PM and we waited for an hour before leaving for SushiZenmai. No questions on what we ate. Walked for hours. I don't really remember much. I'm just going to briefly run through of what I remember. Went to Popular Searched for JDramas and managed to discover Ryusei no Kizuna for my sister and for myself, the truetruetrue original copy direct from Japan. Wasted moments of searching for either KAT-TUN, NewS, Hey! Say! JUMP or Arashi albums. Goes to show that Johnny's would never release these albums here. Anyway, went Nichii and bought baju that cost me up to RM110.80 and I have to repay SweetMae for that since I ran out of cash and I desperately wanted that baju. And went to Diva and bought the hairband that I've been dying to get. Lyn is tired and going out. xoxo |