No matter the mistake, you'll always shine with glitter

The Narcissist

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Yours truly. 17. Female. Malaysian. Petite. 27th MAY. Single. Maybe available *hinthint* NEWS is her only drug. Absolutely, magically in love with BEAST. Hey! Say! JUMP. SHINee. Super Junior. In that order. Assuntarian. A Harry Potter Twitter Role-Player. Compulsive writer. Lusting for a glance in her direction. Sings like the world is deaf. As genuine as you can get. A self-proclaimed narcissist. Enjoys not having the other half
Love me? Hate me? I'll still be me. Enjoy. Lyn|Avery
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Her Cravings

• To be any JE member's adopted sister
• My first book published
• To meet NewS
• To meet Hey!Say!JUMP
• To meet Super Junior
• To meet SHINee
• To get signed to SM Entertainment
• A degree in English
• Black skinnies (:
• ~~White skinnies (:~~
• ~~A pet. Definetely~~
• Japanese boy uniform
• To perform a JE song medley
• To perform in Tokyo Dome and get signed to JE
• Another trip to Japan
• Permanent Japanese residence
• A yukata
• ~~A red and black checkered scarf~~
• To cosplay
• My first perfect Japanese bento lunch
• ~~A Japanese dictionary~~
• Understand and speak fluent Japanese
• Understand and speak fluent Korean
• National status as a writer
• A laptop or something similar
Will be updated when fancy strikes

Her One True Loves

MY BRATs TEAM. Alor Star 2011 NewS (Lots of love). Hey! Say! JUMP. Masuda Takahisa. Kato Shigeaki. Pen. Paper. Trees. Yamashita Tomohisa SHINee 3A12009. Super Junior. Nakajima Yuuto. Mathematics. Window shopping. Tegoshi Yuya. Japan! Twilight and Dusk. Kim Jong-Woon Sunset. Beaches. Rain. Stars. Inspiration. Koyama Keiichiro. Colours. Winter. Snow. Winter jackets. Nishikido Ryo.

Runaway

Ramblings&Memories

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Hatred Is Not Only A Feeling
To Shed Or Not To Shed
Can It Be Called Love?
When You Fall, Fall With Grace
Is It Called Self Abuse?
The Words of a Man in Love
Of Headaches and Departures
wow

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Bella's Lullaby

Sunday, October 26, 2008 @ 9:00 PM

Wassup?

I have a feeling that I won't be hating the Twilight movie as bad as I used to. Robert Pattinson isn't my idea of an Edward Cullen but he did come pretty close to being my perfect Edward.

He's pretty hawt, ain't he?

I wonder what girl wouldn't want to be in Kristen Stewart's shoes. Sigh.

Well, Kristen Stewart's another matter.

I've grown to understand that she's the director's choice and I can't do anything to help that.

I just gotta bear with her and imagine myself in her place instead.

Btw, guys

You may have read that the song The River Flows in You or something like that by Yiruma is Bella's Lullaby but it's not.

Bella's Lullaby is written by a guy called Carter something. Bleugh! I forgot his last name.

The song hasn't been released yet so if you search Bella's Lullaby on Limewire, it will only give you the above mentioned song.

Oh yes! The Twilight soundtrack has also been released.

The official tracklist:

1. Muse — Supermassive Black Hole

2. Paramore — Decode

3. The Black Ghosts — Full Moon

4. Linkin Park — Leave Out All The Rest

5. MuteMath — Spotlight (Twilight Mix)

6. Perry Farrell — Going All The Way (Into The Twilight)

7. Collective Soul — Tremble For My Beloved

8. Paramore — I Caught Myself

9. Blue Foundation — Eyes On Fire

10. Rob Pattinson — Never Think

11. Iron & Wine — Flightless Bird, American Mouth

12. Carter Burwell — Bella's Lullaby

Check Yes Juliet

@ 7:13 AM

Well, to start off:
a) I slept in till like afternoon...Not something I usually do
b) went shopping at Subang Parade....Was supposed to go to Sunway but my mom changed her mind at the last minute.
It was generally a very uninteresting day but well, I've got nothing to do but blog...And fix up a piano score that I found of LoveBug...
It was actually shopping for my sister's clothes since she's going to be leaving for Aussie in less than a month. Hell, my baby sister is leaving next week.
Blah, blah, blah. Went to MPH...Bought HSM3: Senior Year and Jonas Brothers: A Little Bit Longer CD.
Lazy to elaborate.
Going to play the piano.
Muaxx...

{Here's the Countdown. 3, 2, 1, And fall in my arms now. There's no turning back for us tonight.}

~Check Yes Juliet - We The Kings~

So What?

Thursday, October 23, 2008 @ 6:21 PM

The world's probably already irritated with me for ranting and raving about this subject so much but what the heck? I enjoy screaming randomly about it...Half the world doesn't even listen to me when I talk about it. Hope this part of the world doesn't mind.

Highlight to read: I don't want anyone to actually read this but...Nvm

Just so YOU know, I've gotten over you but it hurts to know that you treat HER much better than you did to me.

I would like to ask...Did you split with me while you were FRIENDS with her????

Did you really love me as much as you are loving her right now?

She's such a much better girlfriend isn't she?

Calling you whenever she can, givess up anything for you. Isn't she just wonderful?

The sweetest thing you've ever found. Isn't that what you tell each and everyone of your girlfriends? It's such a standard line that I bet you can't see the truth from the false.

I'm never leaving her. If I did, penguins would rain or something like that.

Well, don't forget what you told me, asshole

"Well, be together FOREVER."

"I have this one friend who's got a girlfriend since Form 2...and now they're married."

Aww, sweeet? Is that really the TRUTH or is it just a LIE?

Trixie dying. True or False?

Do you feed the same dying lie to each and everyone of your girlfriends?

To make them pity you?

PATHETIC fool.

I read HER Xanga...

Which of your baby pet sister's died just before your 17th birthday?

Care to share the info?

I wished you happy birthday even though I was still hurting...Did you bother to wish me?

I don't remember...

I have tons of letters that I have written that I planned to give to you but I haven't given you any for fear that it would hurt you.

Do you know how much it HURT me when you accuse ME of hurting you?

Do you even REMEMBER when we met?

I most certainly did and I even remembered what were your FIRST words and what I was doing.

Do you?

I bet all you remember now is about HER!

I still have the present you gave me but I can't even look at it because when ever I see it, my heart HURTS so badly I can't help but want to cry.

You barely even send me messages to ask me how I'm doing.

You said we'd remain FRIENDS but friends NEVER last, do they?

Only GOOD friends do.

I trust I'm not your good friend.

I BARELY know anything about you these days.

I have to work up the courage to ask my fairy godmother what's happening to you.

I hurts to know that I caused what's happening to you.

Before, you were charming, sincere

Sweet

You made me laugh

You then became clingy and paranoid

But I still loved you

I miss the times when you would call me PRINCESSS but I know that will never be.

I miss your evil twin.

All you ever did was hurt me and you claim I've hurt you...HOW?
You never explained.

You also insist that you know how to push all my right buttons. Do you really know?

Huh?

Do you know my dreams?

My hopes?

Now you've got your perfection...Isn't that right?

You'll never LEAVE her huh?

When you get MARRIED, don't forget to drop me an invite.

I'll come in a original Chanel vintage gown and leave as abruptly as I've arrived, tossing pieces of PAPER everywhere and in the middle of the mess, a newly polished necklace that I once cherished.

I'll leave with intrigue in my wake.

But you'll have your HAPPY ever after with HER.

Well, wish you good luck and happy ever after.

I bet you'll leave up to that long and even longer now that you've got you one and only PRINCESS, right?

What happened to 'EMO's don't live very long, Lyn."

Bullshit.

Crap.

Shit.

Scum.

Rake.

Jerk.

Hope your kids don't turn out like you and HER!

Sigh. Ranting and raving is really tiring. It's surprising that I'm over HIM but I still feel the pain whenever I read about HER and HIM or HIM and HER on the Friendster and Myspace.

Sigh. He never did that for me. He never even mentioned a single word about me on either places. It really hurts to know that you throw her name just about everywhere.

Beautiful, aint it?

How it must be to love.

You've never been rejected have you?

Lynette...If you're reading this, please don't come to school and scream in my face about how I shouldn't blame him.

It's not your place to tell me what I should do and what I shouldn't. You may be his pet sister and care about him but I am just another human being with my own feelings,

thoughts and emotions.

YOU! If you're reading this, at least now you know how I felt about you and I don't care if you wish to conclude that I never loved you.

Don't forget that I got scolded and screamed at and mistrusted by my parents because I loved you.

I sacrificed. But it wasn't enough.

Well, now you've got your dream.

Enjoy.

{I'm still a rockstar, I've got my rock moves, And I don't want you Tonight}

~So What? - Pink~

Smexy Singing

Sunday, October 19, 2008 @ 5:19 AM

Found it on Bue's blog. He's so cute that I wanna stuff him in my pocket and make him sing to me all day long

Tagged By Ginny;Krystl (Again) =D

@ 4:35 AM

1. The last person to tag you is ?

Ginny

2. Your relationship with him/her ?

Friends? What else?

3. Your impression towards him/her?

A very corrupted person...

4. The most memorable thing that he/she has ever done for you ?

Listen to me complain about that certain someone and not say that she's bored with hearing me talk about that person

5. The most memorable words that he/she has said to you ?

"Hey, Shern Lyn" *shrugs* LOL I can't really think of anything right now

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will...

Kill her...I know, evill...Hehe

I'd probably dump her straight away

7. If he/she becomes your enemy...

I'd ignore her, then kill her...I'm in a murdurous mood :P

8. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on...

Splitting up with me

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is...

Because she don't want to break up with me...HAHAHA!

10. The most desirable things to do for him/her is

I don't get this question

11. Overall impression towards him/her is

a) Corrupted

b) Awesome

c) Cute :P

12. How do you think the people around you will feel about you ?

I don't know, ask them

13. The character for you for yourself is ?

Bimbotic

Emo-ish at times???

I don't know!

14. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is ?

I can be more mature than I appear to be at times

15. The most ideal person you want to be is ?

Myself? I don't wanna be anyone else

16. For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them...

I Lurves You, Darlings!

You guys rock my world so hard that every time you're around, earthquakes occur

17. Who I Tag..1.2.3.4.5.6.7.8.

1.Amanda Hong

2. Hanli

3. Bue

4. Darius BYJ

5. Kanisha

6. Sweet Mae

7. Hon Paige

8. Kaylee

18. Who is number 2 having a relationship with ?

Not anyone that I know of, surely

19. Is 3 a male or a female ?

Female...DUH!

20. If number 2 and 7 got together, would that be a good thing ?

How should I know? They don't even know each other!

21. How about 2 and 8 ?

They don't know each other either!

22. What is number 1 studying about ?

Stuff that Form 1's learn

23. When was the last time you had a chat with them ?

1. Sometime ago

2. Not really sure

3. Said 'hi' the last time I saw her

4. Really long ago

5. The last time I saw her

6. On Friday...Sometime after school

7. Can't remember

8. No idea

The above proves that I'm anti-social :P

24. Is number 4 single ?

Not that I know of.

25. Say something about number 2.

She's a hot, sexy little thing...Sweetest little thing you will ever find...

Tagged: Sweet Mae :) and Krystl :)

Thursday, October 9, 2008 @ 7:09 PM

1. Where would you go if someone sponsors you an air ticket?

Me would go on a trip around the world...If it was only for one place...I'd probably go to Peru or Egypt to study the pyramids/Nasca Lines and then end the trip by flying to America...Weird, I know

2. What's your favourite thing to do?

Everyone knows that wey! Write, read...what else???

Be hyper/lala, listen to people...I love listening...I'm an awesome listener (someone told me that once)

3. Do you think money can buy happiness?

It usually depends..Sometimes it can, sometimes it can't but I'd choose money over happiness if my happiness is not worth it but normally I'd pick...HAPPINESS!

4. If you were given a chance to receive something, what would it be?

The world's entire collection of books...and everlasting youth and life...lol =D

5. Things/people that you can't live without?

Things: books, pen, paper, pencil, my piano and the computer...what would I do without it?

People: Mommy, Daddy, Sissy, Broey, my darlings friends...

6. What are you afraid to lose?

Didn't I just answer that? Nvm...Things I'm afraid to lose:

My life

My family

My books...Lol XD Yes, I truly love my books

My imagination

My clothes I know, weird too but what would I do without clothes?

My good health...

7. If you won 1 million dollars, what would you do?

Put three quarters into the bank for college and take the other one quarter and go on a shopping trip around the world...I'd go to Barney's in New York first...I'll bring you along, Fong but bring your own money

8. What do you dream of doing in the future?

Writing, sleeping, partying, going to college, maybe get married (or have tons of secret affairs), living in a penthouse in New York or a quiet house in Venice, becoming a world famous author (LOVE ME!)

9. List down 3 good points about the person who gave you this survey.

Sweet Mae:

Well, she loves people

She is super-random

An awesome friend

Krystl:

Sexeh Baybe

An awesome cheerleader

A super-duper friend

10. What makes you happy?

Reading, writing, brainstorming, finding the one that I'm destined to live with for the rest of my life, playing my piano...

11. What type of person do you hate the most?

Personally, I don't mind lala's...People have told me I am one anyways...

I hate:

fakes

wannabe's

desperate guys/girls

people who like to spread rumours just to see the person they hate get hurt

guys who just want to get some

12. If you have a superpower, what would it be?

To be able to fly and have pretty black angel wings...

13. Would you go for happiness or money?

I answered that earlier...go back up and read if you don't remember...=.-'

14. Who do you think are the most important people in your life?

I think I also answered that earlier...Family and friends...

15. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, would you die for him/her?

It depends on the situation...if my bf asked me to kill myself because he is going to kill himself, I'm not that stupid but if he is being attacked, I would most likely be the one to sheild him from the attack, even if it means getting hurt myself.

16. Who is the last person who hugged you?

Lakshmi???

17. What is the one thing you want to do badly right now?

I want...to...eat...I'm serious, I'm currently starving

18. Who are you close to?

People??? XD =}

19. Are you courageous enough to tell the person that you like him/her?

*Checks for her guts* Nope, not there, I don't have the guts...But I would hint if I really am in love and if I'm dying to be with that person, well, my guts would come back.

20. If you could do one thing over again, what would it be?

Life my entire life over again or...

Rewrite the book that I'm currently working on or...

Apologize to those whom I have hurt, especially my parents

7 things that scares me

1) Ghosts

2) My family and friends dying

3) Being hurt

4) Not being able to imagine

5) Being caught in a war

6) Loving someone when I'm already taken

7) Losing my life (Everyone has to so I can't help it :P)

7 random facts about me.

1) I like to lie on an empty field and stare at the blue sky

2) I carry a book around with me even though I know I'll never be able to read it (Random why? Because I feel safe with it near me...Lol.)

3) I always paint my nails two different colours

4) I like the dictionary

5) I can sit at the piano and stare at nothing for about fifteen minutes

6) I love to buy necklaces but I seldom wear them

7) I can never finish writing a book though I'm working hard at trying to...Meh

7 things I plan to do before I die

1) Travel the world

2) Learn to ride a bike

3) Publish at least three books

4) Be world famous

5) Eat the weirdest food

6) Live by the ocean in Miami

7) Kiss a boy (I seriously have never kissed one...excluding my bro and dad)

7 things I can't do

1) Compose music

2) Toe-touch

3) Split

4) Finish a book (Working on it)

5) Meet the Jonas Brothers (sorry for those who hate them)

6) Wear a sleeveless top without looking fat

7) Eat dogs/cats (That's absolutely cruel)

7 people to do this questionnaire

Rage

Amandaaa Hong

Hanli

Jane

Kaylee

Sukirtha

YOU!

Sweet Mae's Manis Manis 14th Birthday

Saturday, October 4, 2008 @ 8:34 AM

Boo Ya'll!
Today is second last day of school holidays...T.T Until the next two weeks when PMR is going on. Awesome, eh?
Anyway, it's technically not Sweet Mae's birthday...she's celebrating it early because of stupid exams which were unfortunately scheduled later than normal...Annoying much! But, gives us more time to study. Pssst! I haven't started studying one bit. Anyone who has, good for you! Rajin-ted persons like Vally would have.
Manis Mae celebrated her manis manis birthday at Sunway Sun and Surf Cafe (lucky woman!) at 12.30...I was late about an hour. Mommy pick my sissy and I late from class...Piano for me. Violin for sissy. Same centre so no problem-o. Arrived at Sunway Hotel at like 1.30 or less...
Stuffed myself with food. :P Hey! I didn't eat since morning. And that was two paus that weren't even normal sized. They were as small as a 50 sen coin! Wtf??? Stuffed with lasagna, potato, a finger sandwich and a salmon sushi. One salmon sushi! Last one!
Makan, makan. Camwhore, camwhore. Laugh, laugh. Eat somemore. After that go and play with chocolate fountain. I took like two sticks of strawberry and two of marshmellows. I dropped one strawberry from my first stick into the fountain. OOPS! Lol...
After makan and laugh, play and bully Manis Mae into bukak-ing her presents which she didn't, play MAFIA! Damn chunted wey but not as fun as we played once.
I kena Mafia once...Sue Lynn knew because Adiba knew and told her. Curse you, Adiba! Worse part, Sue Lynn: POLICE! Idiot! So, she go and kill me lah. I should have killed her instead of Lydia. T.T
If only I knew she was police. T.T
Anyway! Manis Mae agreed that after each day of Mafia, she will open one prezzie and she did! Because we were evil and forced her too!
Then, another round of Mafia. A lot of us kena mati because we didn't know who the Mafia was! Funnily, Adiba was Mafia and nobody guessed. So, I kena mati also. Then, those who kena mati (Shu Han, Sue Lynn, Sweet Mae) we all go makan. Sweet Mae and I go makan porridge. The salted egg not fresh. Gross! And I put too much stuff in so it was super saltish. Lol
Then, CUT CAKE TIME! We sang 'Happy Birthday' in 3 languages. Courtesy of Nicky.! English, BM and some of us struggled through Mandarin. Almost sang in Tamil but that was worse. We didn't know. Lol
Then went back to playing Mafia. Then Sue Lynn and I mati again and then we go makan mushroom soup. The soup was awesome wey!
Makan cake. It was chunted. Don't have pics yet. Wait till I get from Sweet Mae. My stupid camera got no batt. T.T
Then Shu Han and I go makan/waste ice kacang. Both of us were full anyway and Shu Han was on her 'P'...so, yeah.
Then play Charades. It's a long story so I'll ignore that. Then, GO HOME!
I waited with Manis in the lobby for more than half an hour because my mommy was in Sunway accompanying my sis and her friends shopping for their Farewell Party.
Patrixia's mom was supposed to be there but she only came at like 4 sth so my mommy was pretty pissed. My mom was actually supposed to only chaperone for half an hour.
Then balik Dad's office.
I don't wemember our convo...:p
Sorry, once more, again no pics. Stealing from Laksh and Sweet Mae soon. I promise.

ShernLyn. Is. Out.

Flying In Perfect Circles

Wednesday, October 1, 2008 @ 7:28 AM

First day of Raya, baybeh!

Sad part...returning to school in four days. Bleugh! I'm too lazy to go to school. Haven't finish tons of homework. Technically, not bothered to do any. Except for certain teachers work though. Funny thing, I don't do Miss Tan's work...at least I haven't finished.

Wonderful first day of Raya! Sadly, wasn't invited to anyone's Rumah Terbuka...T.T See how anti-social I am? Lol-lipop!

So...about today. Woke up at 4 something in the morning. Left house at 6 something. Was on the highway at 6.05, I guess.

We're off to see the Wizard...the wonderful Wizard of Oz. hehe...Love that song. Not to see the wizard though. Went to Cameron Highlands on a one day trip.

Actually, my dad was there to deliver some stuff to a church there so the whole happy family went along.

The church was a convent/school/church kinda place and it was classically gorgeous. It was like stepping in an old English building. Well, it was built before the war for the European people's kids to study there with the Sisters.

Their chapel was beautifully English and it was gorgeous. It was a high, very high ceiling that was curved and wooden benches that looked as if they had just stepped out of a movie.

So sad that I don't have pics because they speak a thousand words and you guys could see the beauty of a small chapel. *SIGH*

Then, Sister Regina who was taking care of the place told us about the history of the place...it's too much for me to actually remember so yeah...

After that, went for breakfast at T Cafe. B-fast pretty much sucked to me. My sis ordered chicken lasagna and my bro ordered beef lasagna. It sucked big time. I thought that it was be a big serving. The serving was even smaller than my pencil case!!! WTF???

My sis and I ordered an apple pie each. My dad took what they call a late breakfast set. My mom took a spicy fried rice, some scones. My bro and sis drank some honey lime thing. My dad drank coffee. My mom bought a tourist guide that was so thin but cost 2 bucks. My mom took a chocolate cake that was so sucky that I was like O.O What kind of crap?

Overall, our total was RM 58.90...I was like WTF??? Breakfast that expensive arr? I'm so never returning. My mom only went there because of the scones. Sigh...

Then, went shopping at this usual place near Equatorial Hotel...I always adore that place. Bought:
a) huge strawberries
b) Vegetables (that's by mom)
c) a necklace with my intial of 'S' on it...It looked like the Brush Script font S. No pics again...
d) sweet potato in the form of a ball...Awesomely sweet and chewy

Then...go makan ice cream and strawberries at Rajaa's Strawberry Farm or something like that. I makan strawberries with whip cream and honey....MMMMM! Gives dirty people dirty ideas, eh?
After that, balik rumah leh. Nothing much to do at CH anyways. You've been there once, you've been there a whole lot of times.

End of post.
Muaxx