No matter the mistake, you'll always shine with glitter

The Narcissist

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Yours truly. 17. Female. Malaysian. Petite. 27th MAY. Single. Maybe available *hinthint* NEWS is her only drug. Absolutely, magically in love with BEAST. Hey! Say! JUMP. SHINee. Super Junior. In that order. Assuntarian. A Harry Potter Twitter Role-Player. Compulsive writer. Lusting for a glance in her direction. Sings like the world is deaf. As genuine as you can get. A self-proclaimed narcissist. Enjoys not having the other half
Love me? Hate me? I'll still be me. Enjoy. Lyn|Avery
Books Pave the Way to Destruction Yet to A Beauty Beyond Imaginations

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286 posts from 5 June 2011
Escaping the conforms of society
To stupefy the endless expanse of the universe
Advancing into a world unknown
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Her Cravings

• To be any JE member's adopted sister
• My first book published
• To meet NewS
• To meet Hey!Say!JUMP
• To meet Super Junior
• To meet SHINee
• To get signed to SM Entertainment
• A degree in English
• Black skinnies (:
• ~~White skinnies (:~~
• ~~A pet. Definetely~~
• Japanese boy uniform
• To perform a JE song medley
• To perform in Tokyo Dome and get signed to JE
• Another trip to Japan
• Permanent Japanese residence
• A yukata
• ~~A red and black checkered scarf~~
• To cosplay
• My first perfect Japanese bento lunch
• ~~A Japanese dictionary~~
• Understand and speak fluent Japanese
• Understand and speak fluent Korean
• National status as a writer
• A laptop or something similar
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Her One True Loves

MY BRATs TEAM. Alor Star 2011 NewS (Lots of love). Hey! Say! JUMP. Masuda Takahisa. Kato Shigeaki. Pen. Paper. Trees. Yamashita Tomohisa SHINee 3A12009. Super Junior. Nakajima Yuuto. Mathematics. Window shopping. Tegoshi Yuya. Japan! Twilight and Dusk. Kim Jong-Woon Sunset. Beaches. Rain. Stars. Inspiration. Koyama Keiichiro. Colours. Winter. Snow. Winter jackets. Nishikido Ryo.

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not as expected; yet extremely satisfying
craving the unattainable; two-timing two gorgeous ...
the long wait is over; finally time to squeal
new resolutions; falling in love in a crowded hall
birthday wishes three

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a shot of betrayal; a cocktail of rage

Sunday, August 9, 2009 @ 4:14 AM

a shot of betrayal; a cocktail of rage

Anger post, btw.
Skip if not interested but I need to get it out.

I won't mention names as link is on Messenger and I don't want people I hate to bitch me for writing about one of them but I hope that she does know that this post is directed towards her. If this post is not directed to you but your best friend, don't spam me. It has nothing to do with you. And my disappointment of hurt lies with her. Stay out of this. You know who you are.

Yes, I know. You're going to ******. And for the past few years, that's what you've been telling me. You haven't left for the past few years.
Each year, I hope to renew the friendship we lost over the one person who caused all of it.
Yet, you remain close with her.
I forgave you for that.
After all, you were a friend. Someone I could count on even if we weren't close.
Right now, you're really leaving. I've gotten over the shock of losing a friend as we drifted apart. Yet, you never acknowledged me as one of your friends.
I think you might have even forgotten about me.
There is the occasional wave.
I've known you longer than SHE has.
I've known you ever since we were in Std 3. Doesn't that mean anything to you?
You've only known her since Std 5 and another her in Std6.
I've known you longer but you didn't acknowledge us.
What about Ameera?
She's known you longer.
Yet, you have never gave a damn about us.
All these years, you've done stuff that has hurt me deeply without considering my feelings. Each time, I forget. After all, we were extremely close for so many years.
I stuck by you when you had no one even though I had my own friends.
I loved you like a sister.
But you have nothing for me.
Not even thanks.
What about the other friends in the school that you have left behind?
You have never acknowledged them once.
They were the ones who stuck by you when you were new.
The ones who bothered to be your friend.
And yet, I no longer see you going out with them. Do they not mean anything to you?
You left them and didn't come back to visit us except during IU.
We helped you when we were new. I stuck by you through thick and thin even though I was being hurt constantly by the one person whom you seem to treasure so much.
And when you returned to the place which you love so much, you've forgotten all that you have left behind.
Especially me. If you could give me a little bit of acknowledgment, I would be extremely pleased.
Just to acknowledge that I've been a friend. Someone close to your heart.
We shared tears. Joy. Pain. And the cheer times even when our captain was being a bitch.
Even now, I can bring my self to hate you but I can't bring my self to hate you permanently.
Once the wave of anger passes, I go back to thinking that you are still one of my closest friends. Eventhough you know nothing about me anymore, you were once close to my heart and I will never forget. I think you have.
I will always remember the pain no matter what happens.
Yet, I still treasure the times of joy.
I'm not asking you to give me acknowledgment publicly but I would like to at least know that I was once close to your heart.
I can call you a bitch now
But through time, I will still call you a bitch.
Yet, you'll forever be a friend.

Lynxoxo