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The Narcissist

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Yours truly. 17. Female. Malaysian. Petite. 27th MAY. Single. Maybe available *hinthint* NEWS is her only drug. Absolutely, magically in love with BEAST. Hey! Say! JUMP. SHINee. Super Junior. In that order. Assuntarian. A Harry Potter Twitter Role-Player. Compulsive writer. Lusting for a glance in her direction. Sings like the world is deaf. As genuine as you can get. A self-proclaimed narcissist. Enjoys not having the other half
Love me? Hate me? I'll still be me. Enjoy. Lyn|Avery
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Her Cravings

• To be any JE member's adopted sister
• My first book published
• To meet NewS
• To meet Hey!Say!JUMP
• To meet Super Junior
• To meet SHINee
• To get signed to SM Entertainment
• A degree in English
• Black skinnies (:
• ~~White skinnies (:~~
• ~~A pet. Definetely~~
• Japanese boy uniform
• To perform a JE song medley
• To perform in Tokyo Dome and get signed to JE
• Another trip to Japan
• Permanent Japanese residence
• A yukata
• ~~A red and black checkered scarf~~
• To cosplay
• My first perfect Japanese bento lunch
• ~~A Japanese dictionary~~
• Understand and speak fluent Japanese
• Understand and speak fluent Korean
• National status as a writer
• A laptop or something similar
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Her One True Loves

MY BRATs TEAM. Alor Star 2011 NewS (Lots of love). Hey! Say! JUMP. Masuda Takahisa. Kato Shigeaki. Pen. Paper. Trees. Yamashita Tomohisa SHINee 3A12009. Super Junior. Nakajima Yuuto. Mathematics. Window shopping. Tegoshi Yuya. Japan! Twilight and Dusk. Kim Jong-Woon Sunset. Beaches. Rain. Stars. Inspiration. Koyama Keiichiro. Colours. Winter. Snow. Winter jackets. Nishikido Ryo.

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dokidoki at the sight of you; a new horizon
daisuki desu; let's aim for the stars
miso soup; still my sweetest drug
touches of rebellion; a new beginning
strongest addiction; don't you ever stop

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contradiction; a little appreciation would be nice

Monday, May 4, 2009 @ 6:51 AM

contradiction; a little appreciation would be nice

This is an anger post.
So, don't read if you do not wish to.
It's about someone. Someone whom my annoyance for has never been blogged about. It's always in my diary.
So...
Firstly, she ridicules everything I want to do.
I said that I want to learn to cook.
She said, "Don't cook today. I'm sure that you will ask me."
As far as I'm concerned, I wouldn't ask for help because I want to be able to do it on my own.
I don't want any help because that would totally kill the main purpose of me cooking on my own.
But, no.
She, as they say in Chinese "Die also want to help" and then say that I would ask for her help.
I didn't ask whatsoever. She just came and butted in like that.
It pisses me off that she simply judges a person by their past doings.
Yeah, in the past I might have asked for help every single time.
But hey, woman. I'm growing up here.
When I did not say I want your help means that I really do not want it.
If the food burns, then it shall burn.
That's up to me.
After all, it is my first time cooking.
Can't be perfect.
After all, you never allowed me to cook since I was young so there's no practice there.
And don't go on and on saying
I just saw how my mother did and then I learned from there. O.o
I'm watching but I don't see anything worth learning.
Learning is from experience, hear me?
So, watching doesn't teach you anything, does it?
So, stop ridiculing me each time.
And whenever I scold my siblings because it was supposed to be group work of cleaning the house and they did nothing and when I asked them to do something, they just say no, I won't do it...
She says...I know your character. Very lazy. Things you don't want to do, you ask people to do for you. Don't think I don't know your character.
Hey..When she asks me to do things, I might complain and complain but I don't shove it to other people.
So what if I'm lazy? At least I do it right? I've got other priorities in life besides hanging laundry and cleaning dishes.
It's a little pissoffing to always find her scolding me for petty things that do not make a difference.
Andyeah, I bet that if I told her I want to buy cloth to make my own clothes, she would laugh her head off at me and say, Don't ask me for help, aaah. I'm not going to help you aaah.
OBVIOUSLY I KNOW THAT!
That's the point of me wanting to do stuff. So that I learn to be independant and am able to survive.
I did not ask for your help.
There isn't any need to offer.
So don't be nosy and but your head into things that do not concern you. If I didn't help means I don't want it.
That's what the Internet is for anyways. I can learn from in Internet. In fact, half the things I learn are from the Internet. ><>
And then she goes on to say that her friend who frequently makes sushi does not do it like that.
I was really pissedoff. Nobody asked her for her help and she butted in and then started saying that isn't how you do it and she proceeds to help me.
And then she says that I'm so dumb and useless.
Can you feel how hurt I am?
I'm just starting out learning how to cook. It's obvious I will make mistakes. Nobody's perfect.
Can you see why I am not independant?
Forces like this is holding me down.
I TRY to even be independant.

Muchappreciationandlove,
Lynxoxo