No matter the mistake, you'll always shine with glitter

The Narcissist

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Yours truly. 17. Female. Malaysian. Petite. 27th MAY. Single. Maybe available *hinthint* NEWS is her only drug. Absolutely, magically in love with BEAST. Hey! Say! JUMP. SHINee. Super Junior. In that order. Assuntarian. A Harry Potter Twitter Role-Player. Compulsive writer. Lusting for a glance in her direction. Sings like the world is deaf. As genuine as you can get. A self-proclaimed narcissist. Enjoys not having the other half
Love me? Hate me? I'll still be me. Enjoy. Lyn|Avery
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Her Cravings

• To be any JE member's adopted sister
• My first book published
• To meet NewS
• To meet Hey!Say!JUMP
• To meet Super Junior
• To meet SHINee
• To get signed to SM Entertainment
• A degree in English
• Black skinnies (:
• ~~White skinnies (:~~
• ~~A pet. Definetely~~
• Japanese boy uniform
• To perform a JE song medley
• To perform in Tokyo Dome and get signed to JE
• Another trip to Japan
• Permanent Japanese residence
• A yukata
• ~~A red and black checkered scarf~~
• To cosplay
• My first perfect Japanese bento lunch
• ~~A Japanese dictionary~~
• Understand and speak fluent Japanese
• Understand and speak fluent Korean
• National status as a writer
• A laptop or something similar
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Her One True Loves

MY BRATs TEAM. Alor Star 2011 NewS (Lots of love). Hey! Say! JUMP. Masuda Takahisa. Kato Shigeaki. Pen. Paper. Trees. Yamashita Tomohisa SHINee 3A12009. Super Junior. Nakajima Yuuto. Mathematics. Window shopping. Tegoshi Yuya. Japan! Twilight and Dusk. Kim Jong-Woon Sunset. Beaches. Rain. Stars. Inspiration. Koyama Keiichiro. Colours. Winter. Snow. Winter jackets. Nishikido Ryo.

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frustrated; in blissbliss-land
birthday wishes one
purely inside; slipups

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sucker for ballads; discomfort and annoyance

Saturday, May 30, 2009 @ 5:39 AM

Wishing that my eyes would stop craving for a sight of you

Arashi's released three new songs.

Out of three, two are ballads.

And I'm instantly in love with them.

Goes to say, Desiree Khuan Shern Lyn, is a sucker for ballads and cannot resist them.

So, now the guys know what to woo me with.

A serenade is all you need to win my heart.
Figuratively, of course.

I don't go down that easily.

Unless you are a Japanese Johnny's Entertaiment member and holds a place close to my heart.

Then be very sure I'll go rolling down the hill after you.

And, I sing ballads the best.

My voice doesn't crack easily

Since I'm not a professional singer and neither do I have any singing ability.

I just have a knack with remembering melodies.

And ballads allow me to sing freely and drag my notes.

Since I don't really have a good grasp on singing without chopping my words...

I know it sounds weird but if you hear me sing, you'd probably understand.

And my brain works better on ballads.

Plus, ballad lyrics are extremely touching.

And I'm a sucker for sweet nothings.

I'm more emotional when it comes to ballads anyways.

I've been meaning to blog about this for quite long to get it off my back but what with the stupid computer being seriously sick and having to be taken to the hospital...

It's not much of a hatred but an annoyance and discomfort as stated above to the person she is right now. Previously, she was different. At least to myself and another of the same party.

She was bright.

She was lovable.

She was responsible.

She stuck to her word.

She helped out in group decisions.

She never shouted, merely lectured.

She never hated, only disliked.

She looked carefree, now troubled.

She was a friend.

Now I've no idea who she is.

She rarely speaks to me.

And whenever she lectures on noise level, she fails to look at those surrounding her but never fails to SHOUT at the rest.

Those surrounding her make the most noise whereas those who have minimal noise level get the full force of her annoyance.

Where did the girl that I respected go?

To the dark side? As quoted by another innocent bystander.

I am civil to her but I wonder how long can I keep the facade before I give her the full force of a cold shoulder.

On a certain current issue, she makes a vital decision in trying to get full participation from everyone but she hasn't made any move to carry out the decision.

She decides but leaves the dirty work to the one who has since the beginning shouldered responsibility with her. And the one who shared the responsibility has begun to feel that the on going plan has become her sole responsibility.

Much like the fable of the mice trying to put a bell on the cat. All suggestions but no action.

She spends more time with others whom she deem more important rather than discussing about the plan and what we can do to make it work.

She only talks about preparing the paperwork and how she knows the best way to do it because of her connections rather than about the real situtation at hand.

Responsibility and participation in group decisions aside, attitude and personality wise:

She has decidedly changed.

For better or worse, I have no idea?

It could be due to the load of work she might have

And the stress caused by it

But that is no reason to lash out unreasonably at those around her whom are less important to her.

When I speak to her about a certain female, source of my hatred, she says that when I hate other people, other people might hate me too.

I bet that when the other party speaks about those whom they hate, she wouldn't say this to them. No, she'd most likely just shut up or agree or be neutral.

I know my word-twisting and trying to hide my intentions are much in vain since I don't have the wordplay skills of SweetMaeChan but I tried my best.

Those of you who are even a little involved in this would know who I'm talking about.

Those of you who aren't, I'm sure it isn't difficult for you to find out who I'm talking about.

It's pretty easy actually but if you're going to ask me who, I'm ignoring all questions.

Any questions on this is fine but name questions are going to be ignored.

If anybody manages to figure out who I am speaking about, feel free to inform her about my feelings.

I'm a coward to not say it to her face when she insults me downright since I care about the feelings of others unless they don't care about mine.

But she held a place in my heart as a good friend and she finally lost the respect I used to have for her. And I still care for those whom I used to like.

Feel free to inform her.

I'll be happier.

At least she knows that one person dislikes her when she's so "nice" that I don't think anyone can hate her.

Muchappreciationandlove,

Lynxoxo