No matter the mistake, you'll always shine with glitter

The Narcissist

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Yours truly. 17. Female. Malaysian. Petite. 27th MAY. Single. Maybe available *hinthint* NEWS is her only drug. Absolutely, magically in love with BEAST. Hey! Say! JUMP. SHINee. Super Junior. In that order. Assuntarian. A Harry Potter Twitter Role-Player. Compulsive writer. Lusting for a glance in her direction. Sings like the world is deaf. As genuine as you can get. A self-proclaimed narcissist. Enjoys not having the other half
Love me? Hate me? I'll still be me. Enjoy. Lyn|Avery
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286 posts from 5 June 2011
Escaping the conforms of society
To stupefy the endless expanse of the universe
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Her Cravings

• To be any JE member's adopted sister
• My first book published
• To meet NewS
• To meet Hey!Say!JUMP
• To meet Super Junior
• To meet SHINee
• To get signed to SM Entertainment
• A degree in English
• Black skinnies (:
• ~~White skinnies (:~~
• ~~A pet. Definetely~~
• Japanese boy uniform
• To perform a JE song medley
• To perform in Tokyo Dome and get signed to JE
• Another trip to Japan
• Permanent Japanese residence
• A yukata
• ~~A red and black checkered scarf~~
• To cosplay
• My first perfect Japanese bento lunch
• ~~A Japanese dictionary~~
• Understand and speak fluent Japanese
• Understand and speak fluent Korean
• National status as a writer
• A laptop or something similar
Will be updated when fancy strikes

Her One True Loves

MY BRATs TEAM. Alor Star 2011 NewS (Lots of love). Hey! Say! JUMP. Masuda Takahisa. Kato Shigeaki. Pen. Paper. Trees. Yamashita Tomohisa SHINee 3A12009. Super Junior. Nakajima Yuuto. Mathematics. Window shopping. Tegoshi Yuya. Japan! Twilight and Dusk. Kim Jong-Woon Sunset. Beaches. Rain. Stars. Inspiration. Koyama Keiichiro. Colours. Winter. Snow. Winter jackets. Nishikido Ryo.

Runaway

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A few words would be nice. :D

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So What?

Thursday, October 23, 2008 @ 6:21 PM

The world's probably already irritated with me for ranting and raving about this subject so much but what the heck? I enjoy screaming randomly about it...Half the world doesn't even listen to me when I talk about it. Hope this part of the world doesn't mind.

Highlight to read: I don't want anyone to actually read this but...Nvm

Just so YOU know, I've gotten over you but it hurts to know that you treat HER much better than you did to me.

I would like to ask...Did you split with me while you were FRIENDS with her????

Did you really love me as much as you are loving her right now?

She's such a much better girlfriend isn't she?

Calling you whenever she can, givess up anything for you. Isn't she just wonderful?

The sweetest thing you've ever found. Isn't that what you tell each and everyone of your girlfriends? It's such a standard line that I bet you can't see the truth from the false.

I'm never leaving her. If I did, penguins would rain or something like that.

Well, don't forget what you told me, asshole

"Well, be together FOREVER."

"I have this one friend who's got a girlfriend since Form 2...and now they're married."

Aww, sweeet? Is that really the TRUTH or is it just a LIE?

Trixie dying. True or False?

Do you feed the same dying lie to each and everyone of your girlfriends?

To make them pity you?

PATHETIC fool.

I read HER Xanga...

Which of your baby pet sister's died just before your 17th birthday?

Care to share the info?

I wished you happy birthday even though I was still hurting...Did you bother to wish me?

I don't remember...

I have tons of letters that I have written that I planned to give to you but I haven't given you any for fear that it would hurt you.

Do you know how much it HURT me when you accuse ME of hurting you?

Do you even REMEMBER when we met?

I most certainly did and I even remembered what were your FIRST words and what I was doing.

Do you?

I bet all you remember now is about HER!

I still have the present you gave me but I can't even look at it because when ever I see it, my heart HURTS so badly I can't help but want to cry.

You barely even send me messages to ask me how I'm doing.

You said we'd remain FRIENDS but friends NEVER last, do they?

Only GOOD friends do.

I trust I'm not your good friend.

I BARELY know anything about you these days.

I have to work up the courage to ask my fairy godmother what's happening to you.

I hurts to know that I caused what's happening to you.

Before, you were charming, sincere

Sweet

You made me laugh

You then became clingy and paranoid

But I still loved you

I miss the times when you would call me PRINCESSS but I know that will never be.

I miss your evil twin.

All you ever did was hurt me and you claim I've hurt you...HOW?
You never explained.

You also insist that you know how to push all my right buttons. Do you really know?

Huh?

Do you know my dreams?

My hopes?

Now you've got your perfection...Isn't that right?

You'll never LEAVE her huh?

When you get MARRIED, don't forget to drop me an invite.

I'll come in a original Chanel vintage gown and leave as abruptly as I've arrived, tossing pieces of PAPER everywhere and in the middle of the mess, a newly polished necklace that I once cherished.

I'll leave with intrigue in my wake.

But you'll have your HAPPY ever after with HER.

Well, wish you good luck and happy ever after.

I bet you'll leave up to that long and even longer now that you've got you one and only PRINCESS, right?

What happened to 'EMO's don't live very long, Lyn."

Bullshit.

Crap.

Shit.

Scum.

Rake.

Jerk.

Hope your kids don't turn out like you and HER!

Sigh. Ranting and raving is really tiring. It's surprising that I'm over HIM but I still feel the pain whenever I read about HER and HIM or HIM and HER on the Friendster and Myspace.

Sigh. He never did that for me. He never even mentioned a single word about me on either places. It really hurts to know that you throw her name just about everywhere.

Beautiful, aint it?

How it must be to love.

You've never been rejected have you?

Lynette...If you're reading this, please don't come to school and scream in my face about how I shouldn't blame him.

It's not your place to tell me what I should do and what I shouldn't. You may be his pet sister and care about him but I am just another human being with my own feelings,

thoughts and emotions.

YOU! If you're reading this, at least now you know how I felt about you and I don't care if you wish to conclude that I never loved you.

Don't forget that I got scolded and screamed at and mistrusted by my parents because I loved you.

I sacrificed. But it wasn't enough.

Well, now you've got your dream.

Enjoy.

{I'm still a rockstar, I've got my rock moves, And I don't want you Tonight}

~So What? - Pink~